just got home from supper with colleagues about 1 hour ago...went to prata house for prata! had mushroom cheese and bomb prata..lol...freaking expensive tho..oh well...tried to maple but the freaking internet is still giving problems...think too much people using the freaking star hub broadband now...bleah...

anyway cole's first year in ite officially ended today with her last paper..and i guess to her...its lika heaven cause for 1 month she doesn't have to worry about school unless she fail her exams..hopefully not..and i'm still thinking if i did the right thing...

cause after sending her home...i took off my ring from the stainless steel bead chain and put it onto her necklace with her ring...the one where we got at couple's lab...i don't know how or what she felt at that moment...but i think somehow she got what i was trying to tell her i guess...not too sure of it tho...

cause i know that if i continue to wear the ring...somehow i'm gona still be attached to her in some ways and i don't that to happen...cause i think right now she's setting her priorities right too...and i don't want her to think that she's making me stuck...so i guess it's the best for the both of us...

giving her the ring kinda symbolize to me that we are just friends now so that i will be reminded not to cross the boarder...still struggling with it in someways...so yea...hopefully without the ring in my procession i can remind myself we are just friends now...no longer together...

not that i mean to be harsh or something but it's just what i feel about where we stand now...cause to me...it's like the feeling's not the same anymore...and it's making me see a future without cole by my side...now i don't know how she feels but that's how i feel...she may still be in my future...but not someone who will be by my side when i need them to be...

not much i can say about it or do anything about it...or even try to change anything...cause i don't think there's anything i can do to change it...so i guess i'll just leave it as that...unless she's the one who starts picking things up and piecing them back into one...maybe if that happen we might be in each other's future side by side...

anyway...can't chiong maple tml cause there's server check and i'm freaking tired...gona go to bed soon provided i don't puke...supper's still battling my tummy till now...maybe i'll go down to the cafe tml afternoon to slack...see how ba i guess..now don't really wana go out but i've got nothing to do at home anyway...

lol i better get my sleep...tired out from everything...