todae was pretty much a fun dae...tho i'm tired...now...cos had been out almost e whole dae doing activities...hehe...

morning,went for breakfast wif my bro.den went for service...interesting sermon todae...abt God's timing for us...and not our timing for Him to do things in our life...yup...learnt quite some stuff...den went for lunch wif my cell at thomson plazza food court...talked alot of crap during lunch..

den head down to snookeriam(spelling not sure) for pool...hehe...see euginia,kai ling and alicia play damn funny...haha...den played for abt 1 hr...or rather me,i played for abt 45min to 1hr(e rest continued till dono wat time la)...den i had to rush home to get my stuff for tennis...wahahaha...had to be at jit's place at 330pm...cos he need to go buy a new racket...lol...

den we went thomson plazza again...to get his racket...den i got a new handle strap...cos e old one like rotting away wif time...hold only hand become back...so i got a new one...den got e ppl there to change it for me...den we went off...uncle peter(jit's dad) took us to e destination...

without car,i's wonder how we'll get there in time...cos e place is in clementi...wow...super far sia...den i was playing like a bloody noob...cos i'm one...haha...pick more ball den play more tennis...lol...dumb...den play till super seh...like from 5 till 7....siao...den k.o liao...

drank 1 bottle of water,2 cans of h20 and 1 can of gradenate...siao...almost 2 little of liquid...haha...den went home...reached back abt 830pm...den eat dinner(left overs...yucks) and bathe...den chatted on msn awhile.den talk to my mom...now should be studying for tml's paper...but i'm tired liao...so see how lor...maybe tml on e way to school den i flip tru my book...hehe...its 11pm...so byebye!!!

ok...i'm tired...so i'm gona type little...

todae's work was quite slack...cos there was not much customers...sad tho...but i managed to make some drinks...so its still ok i think...anyway...had fun at work...cos there was one table wif a quite pretty looking lady...and her friend...den they asked for warm water...

den its quite funny to see ku keep going to refill their glass...lol...funny sight...and he kept on making luke warm water and holding on to e jar like there's glue on his hand...haha...den we started talking abt e gals we like...oh well...i'm not gona sae much...not for u ppl to noe..

den went to church for cell...brought my change of clothes...so i changed...den cell was pretty fruitful i would sae...discussed alot of stuff wif my D.G.glad to have e talk...den went to play soccer...wahaha....i scored afew good goals...yay...den now my leg dropping off liao...cramming...need more salt...too much sugar...hehe...

tat was pretty much my dae...e details will be for me to noe n u to find out:P

wow...it seemed like it was only yesterdae tat i enter np...and i'm taking my final papers for my year one liao...so fast...one year went by me...amazing...how times flies...when u r not ready...time takes away precious things from u...memories,relationships,friends,sad pasts,everything...

went to school toddae to study for tml's paper...learnt some stuff...but still not enough i think...hope i can pass tml's paper...a juz pass will be good...as long as i'm able to move on...and not repeat my module...its gona suck like hell...

studied from like 11 till maybe 2?den went for lunch...den go library...but cant study there...dono y le...we ended up talking abt maple story and e different combi we can use to support each different charactors...quite dumb...from like abt 1 till 4 we were juz talking abt tat...and watching some of e maple videos online...

haiz...shoulden't have done tat,,,wasted so much time...den at home now also cant study...but later i'm gona flip tru my revision...hope i can take in e important formulas and stuff...if not sure to die...lets juz give it a try...better to try den never...

anyway...gona sing off before my internet connection crash...now very unstable...wireless problem...always have interuption in e connetion...

hmmm...e past two daes had been bumming daes for me...including todae...surposed to be studying but den...wasn't in e mood...had too much distractions around...and i'm still feeling sian...nvm...i'm gona to sch tml to study wif my friends...provided they r going to...if not den we're gona play vampirism i think...

but i better study...e least i have to do is to juz past my maths...if not i'm sure to repeat that module...ans its gona suck like hell i can tell...i juz need to understand thoses basic and i'll be able to get tru i think...so tml i'm gona study till i understand them...if not...den sae byebye to me...

anyway...went swimming todae wif my bro...had some fun cos its been like months-or rather i hadn't swam since e begining of yr 2006...had alot of things to do and alot of thinking to do too...so i'm actually quite glad i had e time to go for a dip to chill off...and was watching one piece...haha...finally my bro got e next ew episodes after so long..lol...haha...

den we were trying out some lan connection to play some super old arcade games with 2 pc...quite fun...except for e fact that our computer timing abit spoil...like playing 2 different game at once...cos my screen show this scence and my bro's screen showed another...so it was quite funny...den we decided to take a break.

so i have some time to crap here...lol...juz changed my blog skin yet again...cos e other one cant see e text on e tagboard...dono y...there wasn't a single code on font size,font color and font type...and e background also abit spoil....cant change e color to white...so hack it....got a even better one...den i copied e midi file to it...quite nice...cannon-in-d...enjoy ppl...hehe...

now working on another skin which i juz download todae...gona modify it to see how it looks b4 i decide if i'm gona use it...quite cool tho...angel wings...maybe i'll use it...see how...rite now i wana go find some web where i can post mp3 den can put on my blog...

somehow..
.it seemed all clear...tho i'm still confused...e feeling was there...den it wesn't....now its coming back...but its fading off...and i don feel all those xiang feelings i thought i would feel...tho i'd rather feel some of those feelings...is it my feelings for her are fading off?or is it a break tru for me?

somehow,i realised tat i wasn't alone when it all happened...normally,i would have been lost in my own thoughts and xiang feelings...but it seemed at that point in time,God was carrying me in His arms...and once again,there was only one set of footprints,God's...

not only was He carrying me,He held on to my hand...and i could like hear Him sae this:"My child My child,I'll always be there for you..." tat was wat i really held on to...and i noe that God was the one who held back my tears and feelings...always,He's wif me...never leaving me to fend for myself.

as the dae went by me(i slept from 4 till 8),it all seemed so fast...everything was juz wizzing by me...and already,its almost 12am soon...haiz...maybe, juz maybe...i'll only be ready to move on wif life soon...but till den,i'll hold on to this dream,this dream my heart created and engraved deeply....till den...will i noe if truely,i'll still want her in my life...rite now,tats wat i want...

zhao zhao mu mu de den dai
ke yi ling wu shuo bu chu lai
shen shen si si de shang hai
ke yi gan shuo xie bu chu lai
tian ya hai jiao dou feng kai
hong chen nang nu wei shen me xiang ai
tou fa hua bai shui xue hua piao xia lai

bie lai wei wo tan xi
wo de yan lei you ta de jing li
bie yi wei wo xin li mei you mi mi

gu du bu ku bu zai hu
cai bu hui wei yi ge ren feng shen shui gu
mei you ai kuai le ting zi zi ku
gu du bu ku bu zai hu
cai bu hui yi ge zi wan jie bu fu
xiang de tai qing chu feng er mi lu wo yuan mang mu

duo duo shao shao de rong yan
shen me shi hou xiang bu qi lai
dian dian di di zai xin tou
ke yi ming bai xie bu chu lai
shi shi fei fei feng bu kai
hong chen nang nu wei shen me yao xiang ai
xiang si you hai shui xue hua piao xia lai

bie lai wei wo tan xi
wo de yan lei you ta de jing li
bie yi wei wo xin li mei you mi mi

gu du bu ku bu zai hu
cai bu hui wei yi ge ren feng shen shui gu
mei you ai kuai le ting zi zi ku
gu du bu ku bu zai hu
cai bu hui yi ge zi wan jie bu fu
xiang de tai qing chu feng er mi lu wo yuan mang mu

alright...its time to go to e airport soon...i'm wanted there...tat mouse ah...ah leong mouse bugging me to go tonite stay over at starbucks...gona bring my laptop there...but mostly i gona sleep there...cos now i kina zonked out soon...zzz...my eyes closing liao,hope i can survive till tml b4 my eyes pop out...

ok...need to go liao...peace...

yay...work and slack...combined together...wat do i get?25 bucks...hehe...work todae was quite relaxing...tho i'm sad there wasn't much customers todae...haiz...and i got to make alot of cappucinos...haha...fun...to make froth using e steamer on e milk...many of the customers todae ordered either cappucinos or flavoured cappucinos...

think i made like at least 6 to 8 cups of it...for e little number of customers,ita quite alot...hehe...den i got to eat my favourite baked sausage penne...damn shiok...wahaha...some more got melted cheese on top one...den surpose to go meet e person to collect my angela zhang shao han's 2006 calendar and juzsaw puzzle...but tat guy last min pang seh...1 hr b4 meeting time,he sms me sae he cant make it...so its quite sian...

luckily i managed to confirm wif him meeting tml at 3 at bishun mrt...hope he don pang seh last min again...if not den i think i not gona buy e calendar liao...anyway...since i was free...went to church first...reached about 445pm...no one...so i went to join e boy's cell...till like 515pm den i came out...met e rest outside...waiting for e mph to be cleared...den those ppl in e mph ah...they tu n tu one lor...

530 they still inside chit-chatting...den we told them we need e room...den finally able to use e mph...den cell only start at 6...cos as usual...alot of ppl late....haiz...y cant everyone juz be on time?den end cell at 8pm...didnt even had word...due to testimonials...nevertheless...learnt some things...so its still quite ok...

after cell,went to play soccer...wa piang...i wear jeans play...den no form...and no staminal...cos e effect of chinese new year has taken its tow on me...haiz...time to put on e trunks and jump into e pool...hehe...normal ppl will be like put on e jogging shoes...i'm different...hate running...but i like swimming...and since holidaes are coming,its time to make use of it to lose some weight...i hope... :P

haha....its getting late...and my eyes are closing soon,need to recharge my batteries...almost emptying...battery low...lol...still can crap around...okok...i better stop and go to sleep...

hmmm....been wondering y i even went to school todae...should have juz stayed at home...not tat some bad things happened in school...but it was juz so boring...Ael lesson was like from 930am till 1015am...when it should have been from 9am till 11am...and i didnt go for it also...so hack it...

den at 11am...went for computer programming...thought we had some work to do...turned out juz hand in our stage 3 of our mini project can liao...den can go...but since we have nothing to do...me,ace,leonfish and air-reef played vampirism till 1pm.

but our teacher ah...si bei lazy man...b4 1pm he already like sian till can die like tat...cos there's nothing to do...den at 1240pm...he said he's going off first...den asked e 4 of us to off e lights and air-con for him...lazy bum...lol...

den we went for lunch and continued playing vapirism...played some other maps too, baseball...which was damn funny....and some survival thingy where we're like e heros from starship troopers and have to survive e attacks for like 30 min...man tat was hell...
so we played till abt 515pm...den i left for home sweet home...but e rest stayed on...as usual...

so now...i'm still wondering y i even went to school...maybe its e urgh to play...haha...anyway...todae is e last dae of school...wahahaha...so its kina relaxing for me...hehe...gona work tml...den gona go amt mrt to meet someone to collect zhang shao han's 2006 calendar and jizsaw puzzle...hehe...for only 8 bucks...so shiok...wahahaha...

so i'm somehow happier now...getting my favourite singer's calendar and jizsaw puzzle...and to cheer myself up from e up comming saddening dae...

woo...todae was a free dae for me...no school...no apointments...its one lucky free dae during school term...wow...

even tho its a free dae...hadn't been doing much e whole dae...spent e afernoon slacking around,watching south park and serving e net...was pretty boring....and my sis's god sister came by to use e computer...and she stayed till abt 5+ or so b4 leaving...so i was pretty much held up alittle...

helping her to do some file transfering,edditing of her fiels in her rs-mmc card for her phone...and helping her to burn her songs from e card into an audio cd...den my sis locked herself and her god sister in e room...where my com was and is still in...wow...tat was so clever of her...i was stucked outside watching tv from like 430 till almost 6...b4 i finally got back to my computer...

anyway...todae's been pretty slack...been a long time since i was so free during school term...cos its e last week of school b4 my final yr paper...and my thursdae lessons ended last week...so i'm free for now...as for tml...think it'll be quite relaxing in school...most properbly will be playing vampirism,dota or some other new maps almost e whole dae...

as i've said,todae is so slack i didnt noe wat to do at home...maybe i should have gone out for a walk or something...who noes,i may find something nice to buy for her...but now its 1130pm...and i'm gona go sleep soon...so no point crying over spilt milk...tho i cant believe i jus thought of tat now only...tats wat a totally free dae can do to me...

always making me forget some important stuff...damn...n i realised tat a free dae for me is really a free dae...as in totally nothing to do kina dae...make me wan to juz do something to occupy myself...ok la...crapped alot liao...gona sleep liao...tml last dae of school...big plans for pre-exam studies andpost exam work and play...wahahhaa...more money for me during e holidaes!!!

great...i'm feeling sad now...haiz...been writing...or rather typing a long letter for 2 nites liao...a letter so special that its actually quite hard for me to write out...cos its a letter abt my feelings all these years...till now,i've only writen only abt 2 pages i think...and it feels so short...

somehow...i have a feeling that this letter-once i give it to her...it'll be all over...the end...tho i try not to think of that ending...tried writing more juz now...but i juz cant seem to continue...because writing this special letter out really hurt me as i type out the words 1 by 1...as e letter takes its form...so is my heart breaking off...little by little...sipping into the letter...making me feel so empty deep inside...

haiz...filling e letter wif my heart...i'm actually digging into my own self...consuming myself from within...i need something...or someone to fill e hole inside me...den i remembered...a story of a man who dreamt that he met the Lord...

it is tittled: One Set Of Footprints
here goes: one nite a man had a dream.he dreamed that he was walking along a beach with the Lord.across the shy flashed scenes from his life.for each scence he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand-one belonging to him;the other to the Lord.

when the last scence of his life flashed before him,he looked back at the footprints in the sand-he noticed that many times along the path of his life,there was only one set of footprints.

he also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.this really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it."Lord,you said that once i decided to follow you,you'd walk with me all day.but i have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,there is only one set of footprints.i don't understand why in times i needed you most,you would leave me."

the Lord replied,"my precious,precious child,i love you and i would never,nevr leave you during your times of trials and sufferings.when you see only one set of footprints,it was then that i carried you.."

i'm sure many of u have heard this story b4...theres only one thing i'll sae of this story...wow...this story actually touched me i realise...that rite now,i'm at one of my saddest time of my life yet...and i noe that theres only one set of footprints...and that is God carrying me in His arms...filling e emptiness in my heart...

oh Lord...how many times have i forgotten all abt You...and juz a simple story is all that it takes to remind me that You care...and that U'll never leave me...its time i return to you Lord...i'm gona lift up this issue too the Lord...for i noe that He'll take care of it all...may it be for His glory...

yup...tho i'm still feeling low...i noe that He's wif me...and i shall not be in want...

i'll juz wait upon Him-and everything will be fine...thats wat we call-yu guo tian qing.

its valentine's dae!!!!and i'm home alone...wow....

not really...my mom's home...but wats e point?i want to spend time wif her...but it too late...damn...haiz...cant believe i miss my chance...ahhhh....stupid me...fell asleep in e afternoon...

tat was dumb...now i'm so sian...my sis juz came home...she went out for dinner wif her friends...doesnt concern me tho...haha...crap...i'm bored...nvm...gona watch chao nien zhang san fong liao...

SO LONG PPL!!!HAPPY VALENTINE TO EVERYONE!!!

juz here to fill in some time actually...surpose to be studying for com pro test tml...but here i am...not in e mood to do anything...listening to GuDuBuKu by dicky cheung...damn nice song...been listening to it on my zen neeon e whole morning...set e play mode to repeat track den from e time i left home till i reach church and e time i left church till i reach home,i had been listening to it...almost perfect e song liao...wahahahha...

erm...later i'll have to go study abit...if not i sure to die tml...but b4 tat,i'm gona watch south park season 2..hehe...retarded cartoon but interesting...poor kenny...always die in every single episode...except for e christmas one...hahha...he was so happy in e cartoon when the end was spelt out b4 he kana anything...haha...

den again...me watching south park is to distract me from thinking too much...haiz...time is really slipping by every single dae...soon...i'll be lost in space...however...e song GuDuBuKu-meaning its not bitter to be lonely-has a pretty interesting lyric...its more of how to not be overwhelm by loneliness when u cant get to be wif ur loved one...

really touched by tat song...really meaningful and impacted me alot...hope i'll be able to not fall...tho i noe i may fall once tat dae arrive...

Whoo Hoo! today's e last lesson for eeps and Ael tutorial!yes!!!next thursdae no need to go school.can relax at home...wahahahaha...todae's lesson was damn easy lor...connect radial and ring systems for power sockets.den connect circuit for those home base lightings.den learn how to connect light sensor to e lamp so tat when its dark,e lamp will light up.den when its day time,e lamp will shut off...

quite interesting...and to think tat i reached home b4 my lesson ended...haha...lesson was from 12pm to 5pm.but we completed everything b4 3pm...so i went home straight after my lesson.reach back abt 4:10pm...den watched the promise wif my bro...haha...e show's abit boring tho...like there's no connection from e begining to e end one...i see already also got lost...didnt noe wat was going on in e movie at all...

after watching the promise,my bro went out...so i juz slack around...but now quite bored...haiz...nvm...next tuesdae will be e dae...going to tampines mall wif my friend to see if have e rice thingy...den my friend gona get keychain for his girlfriend...haha...still cant imagine how he got to noe his girlfriend and how they got together...quite a lame story...haha...sorry my friend...:P if u ever read this...hehe...

some more next tuesdae is valentine...well...i haven got a date yet...and i doubt she'll be free...she juz seem to be so busy these few daes...oh well...there's still time rite?so i'll juz wait and see how it goes...okok...i gona go liao...

ok...lame...my mom was e one who coped my data cable...she thought it was e camera data cable...den she took it to work wif her on mondae morning...den she never sae...juz kept quiet...man...made me hunt high and low for it e whole of mondae and tuesdae...

den yesterdae i was thinking of going down to imm to get a new cable...but i thought maybe i ask my parents if they ever seen my cable...good thing i didnt buy e cable man...if not,i'll only be wasting money tat i saved to get present for her...

e weird thing is e data cable actually worked for e camera...totally same port...good thing my mom didnt spoil e camera or e cable...cos my mp3 cable is made for chargin e mp3 player as well...so my mom was pretty lucky to get away wif it...

cosi ts like last nite,b4 my mom went to bed,i decided to tell her tat i lost e cable and see if she seen it anywhere...den she juz smiled happily...yaya i saw ur cable...where?i asked...den she looked into e cupboard wif e camera...den relaization hit me...OMG...she took it and use it as e cameradata cable...lol...tat was e funny part...soem more she was going to keep e wire inside e camera bok where e real camera data cable is located at...

haha...tat was one big bubu ta my mom made...cause my brother ans i to panick and search high and low for e cable...haha...

ok...i'm definately feeling much better now...tho morning i was still feeling xiang...went out wif my mom juz now...evening time...went to get 2 bottles of red wine,deoderant,shoe spray.

den my mom wanted to look at some pendants and stuff.so we stop by citigem...and ahha!something caught my eyes...stainless steel ring and titalium pendant for guy...wahahaha...and its quite cheap too...cos have 50% discount...so i bought them lor,one stainless steel ring,one titalium pendant and a stainless steel bead chain for e pendant.total $120...the left over i gave to my mom...so there goes my ang pao money...so now i'm back to square one...broke...haha...

but at least i'm happier now,cos i finally own my own set of ring that i've been looking for for like till kingdom come?remembered e last time i went hunting for a ring wif my mom,all i saw was those ah beng rings which cos like 30 to 40 plusplus and they all look so disgusting...finally todae got one nice looking one which cost only 38...hehe...cheapcheap...wahahahahha...

tml gona go school to revise for my computer programming test on wed...crap...gona need serious help from my friend...asked him to teach me and to my surprise,he actually agree to it...normally,he would be like kao bei me cos i never do my computer programming assignments...haha...so actually quite glad that he's willing to help me out.

thinking back,maybe i shouldn't have colored my hair...now i feel kina out of place...from my cell...cos i'm e only one wif copper brown hair now...n i look like a bloody punk wif my cap...tho they keep quiet,some how i noe that they are affected wif my dying of hair...and such a bright color too...haiz...

and i cant believe tat i actually missed my chances of talking to her this week...didnt even sae hi or look at her face to face...think its my mood tat's really making me lose my last few chances...i have all these plans ready in my mind...but i lack e essential things to make my plans come true...sian...think its high time i press e on'off switch and refresh myself once again...i,however,noe for sure tat i will definately find something of sentimantal value to give to her...b4 i miss my one and only chance...

wish me luck ppl...jia you for my future!!!

Todae is not really a good dae for me i would sae...quite crappy and shitty...in fact...i shoulden even have left home for school...it was purely a waste of time...dono y go school juz to get pissed of by my classmates...man...they are really a bunch of sissies if u ask me...

play vampirism wif them...den 7 human vs 1 vampire...den when e 7 of us human losing,as in almost all turned into vampire liao...e bloody sore losers wt,boon and e really ******* shadow went to hide in e forest where e vams cant get in...hum ji kia...esp shadow...starting kept following me n leonfish to build defence base...den he lured e original vampire m9 to our base...den he ******* siam e base and left me and leonfish to die...

serious case of ******* ass...pissed of by him...den when we almost destroyed his base,he go run and hide in e forest...cant ta han...now,i noe who i really detest in my class liao...basically is shadow cos he is a real coward if u see him play games...always cheat his way around one...knn(sorry for using this...i'm really pissed)...den boon always want to play e winning side only...e moment he lost,he straight away quit and ask for remake...wth?den all quit to remake game...den when he win,he juz gets si bei cocky and stuff...kept hao lian-ing that he very good...like real...

also another one...only noe how to hide n gang ppl...tho his studies quite good...somehow,i'm starting to hate him already...think sooner or later,i'm gona quit dota liao...bcos of wat he did todae...me,leonfish,air-reef and shadow vs boon,wt,warshit and boon liang...how to play like tat?me and air-reef still not very good at dota,den someone else use shadow's computer to play...so we only have leonfish...den boon keep kao bei-ing us....mf...den we juz play slack slack let them win...cos they kept ganging us den all use e hum ji heros...

haiz...think i'll juz stop mixing wif them liao...even leonfish also don wana sit bside boon todae...see wat i mean?he's juz such a sore loser and hao lian kia tat ppl juz wana siam from him...abit like tat virus...suckers...

Hey Everyone out there...have a favour to ask...anyone who noes where i can get those rice art thingy?those art on a grain of rice kind.erm...here a picture for example.


pls email me at bbwarrior39@hotmail.com asap if u noe where i get these types of rice art in singapore.really appriciate ur help here.thanks alot ppl.