spent the evening clearing my big fat shythead...of lots of stuffs i guess...well...stuffs that are pretty much related to one another...yea...felt much better now...thought i know that these thoughts will come back soon...guess i'll have to clear my head once again when they come back...

realised that the past few days...i haven been happy...though on sunday i tried to make myself feel better...i didn't really feel better...and yesterday kinda made me realised i really need to clear my head...think back about stuffs and and really think hard...am i making the right choices?i know some wasn't...but being with baby is one of the choice i know i did right.. :)

gona get my facts right now...hopefully i'll last..yea...things have been pretty much tough these days...with school,work,family and the "extended" family to juggle between...lots of activities going on...cant really catch up with them...think i need to slow down so how...to catch a breather...today is one of those breather days for me...to spend the evening after school at home...relaxing...quiet night...peaceful...

think last week i spent too much time out working and spending time with baby till there's not enough space for both of us...thankfully this week we have our own space and time to chill out and for me, to do some reflection...yea...

feel even much better after clearing my head and posting this out here...wheee :) gona go relax some more then go off to bed soon...

yesterday evening wasn't really all that pleasant...though i did expected to at least do something constructive...it didnt turn out well...wasted the night away by just slumping onto the couch and rotting away infront of the tv screen...not very constructive activity...and baby's sister kinda got on my nerves once in awhile...wasnt in the playing mood yesterday but she insisted on playing with me...got turned off...

kept quiet like through out the whole evening after that...didnt speak much or move much...just sat there like a couch potato i guess...kinda sad if you ask me...all i wanted was to spend some quality time with baby but in the end...i kinda wasted the whole evening away rotting when i could have stayed at home to do other stuffs...oh well...

at least i get to stay home tonight...and spend quality time clearing my head and stuffs...didnt get to have my hair cut today...every time i wanted to get my hair cut...it's always pack or closed...then when i'm too busy or something...it's always empty...bleah...gona eat my super rings while clearing my head and watching tv liao...chao

things are better now,after having our small lil talk today...decided to put things behind us and get on :D

zzz...in the f up mood again...things seem to be going down hill...zzz...and i really am getting tired...of always having to be the one to put things back together where they belong...bleah...sometimes i just wana drop the subjects and move on...let things past and be done with...

its just total f ups...and i always end up being the one to clean things up...frustrations after frustrations after frustrations...f them...cant things get better?wtf are things going the wrong ways...i just dont get it...screw them...

ok...so here i am once again rotting in class...if i'm right, i think my lab tso isn't around so i will be slacking for the time being...lol...so i shall blog abit :)

past week's been kinda busy...from last wednesday onwards actually,cause i have alot of planning and cutting to do for my project...and basically i spent the whole of wednesday afternoon,whole of thursday and friday getting my acrylic "exhaust" pipe to work and fit into my 230v ac blower.finally i got the output of the blower to scale down to a somewhat smaller opening yet still stays strong enough.

had a great weekend too...though saturday i kinda spoil myself...had a heavy lunch at work...then had a heavy cell group dinner and then play soccer...what a genius i was...after the whole thing...or rather half way through soccer...i had to stop...cause the food's all coming up from within...thank God my precious dinner didn't come out..lol...baby watched us played soccer :D

sunday was one of the best i've had :D baby came over for lunch and dinner :D wheeeeee....got to spend the day with her quietly at home :D i love you baby!! yesterday went over to her place for dinner :) auntie shawn made home made pizza :D yum yum :D lol...ate quite alot then went for bubble tea..hehe...and seaweed! for our desserts..slurps :P

gona be working later and tomorrow so wont get to see baby tho...but,hopefully we'll be able to go out on friday :D hopefully...oh well...2 more days to go...chaoz...

baby couldn't get out of home tomorrow...her mom was complaining that she goes out too often...but then again...like what she said...there's nothing to do at home but get bugged by her sisters...lol...oh well...but i do understand why auntie shawn felt a need for her to stay home tho...cause we've really been going out alot these few days...and it's not really nice to keep asking a girl to come out all the time..

oh well...it's either i go to her place tomorrow morning...or i'll just stay at home to rest...since i think my bro will be out anyway..and my sis confirm going out...my mom should be slacking at home tomorrow...dad will be driving tho...maybe we can go out for dinner...see how...but i won't get to spend the day with baby...cause someone invited her family for dinner tomorrow night...

hopefully i might go down to her place in the morning...but then her whole family will be around...and she's gona get worked up again if sheri were to get on her nerves...sigh...will see how thigns goes i guess...

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bleah...got another battle scar today...not yet a scar but soon...and its caused by the freaking heineken again...the last time a heineken bottle broke in my hand...now the bloody heineken glass broke while i was washing it...pui...

i suspect that the glass had a crack on it somewhere on the glass mouth...cause when i was washing it...i used the sponge and scrub it from the inside and i did the wiping twist and suddenly i felt a corner where there was something protruding out slightly...and before i knew it...part of the glass came off and went straight into my finger...

cut into the artery causing quite alot of bleeding...had to press down hard on my finger for nearly 15 minutes to stop the bleeding...which also caused my finger to turn purple for like 10 minutes after dressing the wound...bleah...couldn't do anything washing after that...had to rely on chris and janel to help with washing of the dishes and cutleries...many thanks to them for the help and to xiang ting for doing the dressing of my wound too..

things happens in split seconds...things that might be nasty...and things that might be good...the world is just so unpredictable...one moment ago, you're the happiest person in the world...the next...you're the saddest person in the world...things can happen so quickly in a snap of a finger or a blink of an eye...that someone in rise so highly into the air and fall so quickly down back to earth...

i'm rotting in school now...well...for the past 2 days actually...cause there's really nothing to do in the lab except waiting for the stupid fans which we ordered to arrive...hopefully by next monday...it's so boring i started playing online flash games la...then the lab tech was like :" why are you playing games ariel?" then i was like:" got nothing to do wat...everything comes down to the fan...then can do our stuff" then he just let it go...lol...

then now, i'm still rotting in school...nothing to do...cant listen to music...bleah...waiting for lunch now...but my stomach's feeling kinda weird...like its trying to force out the things on the inside...if there's any in the first place... >:( can feel the insides tossing and turning even now...like toseh or prata like that....bleah...

cant wait to meet baby later...gonab e watching mulan musical by small Caucasians kidos with baby and her mom and sisters..her mom got an extra ticket for me...how nice of her. cant wait for school to end then can rush down to her place...then from there, we'll go for dinner before going down to the australian international school where baby's mom is teaching for the musical..lol

gona be able to spend time with baby :) yay..so happy wheeeee :D haha... oh well.gota go...almost lunch time...cya dudes