tiring and sucky day today...

woke up at 7am though i slept at 1am to go swimming with my mom which i promised...wrong move number one...
feeling my gastric juices coming up before swimming,ate some bread with tuna spread...wrong move number two...
swam 2 laps only but chiong like siao...ended up with a strained calf muscle and burnt out stamina...wrong move number three...
bought breakfast-beehoon mee with fried fish and hot dog,ate them in 10 minutes...wrong move number four...
went for work feeling full yet hungry,did alot of bending down and stuff-causing the gastic to become worse...wrong move number five...
didnt eat lunch cause of the bad gastic,so had garlic bread with cheese at about 4pm...right move number one...
went for boys cell after work and went with them for dinner but didnt eat...again,due to gastric...wrong move number six...
played soccer with the boys on an empty stomach causing the gastric to become enraged...shaged out myself and almost vomited...wrong move number seven...
took a cab home...right move number two...
rlaxing now...best move ever...

on the whole,7 to 3....and the gastric won...now taking some bread to ease the gastric...hope i'm well enough to go for service tomorrow...

todya was basically a slack day,did my IS module selection at 12pm,then went to northpoint to meet my bro for a walk.after that came home and was surpose to go swimming,but in the end...change of plans..haha

went to northpoint yet again,with my mom this time.yup,then went walking around then finally got the thing i want!haha,angela chang's new album-second edition,with the bonus dvd mtv inside!!!yayness!!!haha...then went to BK for dinner and i had my double wopper with cheese!.yumyumyum...lol.

then realised we forgot to go buy my hairband,yup...HAIRBAND...omg haha and i'm wearing it right now...its just for home wear since when i'm at home,my hair's always kinda messy and stuff,especially after i woke up in the morning...makes me feel like a lion who doesnt comb his mane..lol.then was going back liao when we saw poh kim with 50% discount.

wahaha,there...i saw what i was looking for-dicky cheung and nicolas xie's invinsible dou.and i was like-30 dolalrs!must buy...cause i always wanted to buy the vcd,for about a month already.and the price tag for part1 and part2 together was like $59.90 so i didnt but.then i asked the stuff and they told me that even the main brunch in northpoint is selling at the same price-ps,i didnt notice the extra price tag that says-offering now,$30.haha

so of cos i quickly buy la...if not no more.lol.gona watch soon i hope,while i'm still on holidays.haha.yup,that was pretty much my day :)

interesting time at work today.haha,was surprised to see miss cherry and miss tan getting along so well with clarice.lol,and the funny things they converse in.haha.worked floor again...and it's ike every time i work with the other part timers,i'm always doing floor...sigh...but on the other hand,when closing up..it's actually fun.

especially since i will be at the back doing m ydishes and closing up my sink,the bar tender will have to look after the outside.lol,then when i'm done,i'll start sweeping and mopping the floor.so i''ll be like relaxing.haha,then finish my duties can sit back,shake leg and relax.wahaha...but again,i'll always have to help up with sweeping the kitchen and mopping the kitchen floor since most of the time the other part timers except suban will be like slower than me.lol.

oh well...that's the life of working.yup,gona get my pay on saturday.whoohoo!

had salad for my dinner for the first time in my life!!!hahaha...surprisingly,vinaigrette dressing taste so nice for a salad..haha...and more salads to come for dinner over the next few days ihope.haha.but maybe i'll eat other stuff as well...gona try teriyaki saba salad for dinner on thursday night.lol

so i went for work as usual..haha...but in the end i just down to help pack up and close since it is alvin's birthday today!HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOSS!!!haha...ya,anyway reachat arounf 6:40pm to help with the cleaning up till about 7:30pm.then we went down to causeway point to meet the rest from L1.haha,played some funny solider game at time zone before going to sakae!!!

wahahahaha...sakae sushi!yeeehaaa!and its the buffet we ate.lol,me,alvin,mag and chris.the other table all ate a lacarte but they ate the salmon sashimi...omg man...haha...super shiok sia...on the other hand,we ordered the buffet so its more cheap compared to the other table...haha and we ate about at least 45 to 50++ plates of sushis...yumyum...

haha...then had the stuffs over at sakae to help us light up the ice-cream cake for alvin...lol.all 34 or 35 candles.haha,but sigh-look at my tummy-...all the stretching and crunches i did in the afternoon...all went down the drain..but heck,we had lotsa fun so it was all worth it..and big boss bought alvin a pair of 2 days 1 night to and fro tickets to bintan.wow,so nice of her..

overall,had really alot of fun since the last gathering we had...and to see alvin being smashed in the face with his birthday cake was funny...and how he chased mag down to return the favour..haha....we were laughing like mad lor...lol...instead of earning $20 tonight if i had worked,i got in return,a good meal,good company and lots of fun and laughter with wondeful people which is worth so much than money.in fact,this was a priceless time that we had spent toggether as a company to me.so really thank God for leting me be in this company where the bosses are so nice and the people are friendly :)

a new day ahead :D and i still have insomnia...crap...lol...imagine trying to sleep at 12am,then kept waking up cause the light in the room is still on...the finally at 12:45am,the light went out...and i thought,yes!finally...my beauty sleep...but you know what?spent the rest of the night waking up every 15 to 20 minutes....sucks man...

woke up at about 2:35am...and i was like duuuhh...drank some h2o to hydrate myself then went to the loo.then tried to get back to sleep...which i finally did at about...hmmm...let me guess...almost 4am?then i off my alarm when it rang at 6:15am..haha...so my mom had to go into the room and wake me up.lol..

and that was yesterday night-i mean saturday night.and now i'ts monday morning,and i'm still pretty much awake though i've been up for like 19 hours plus plus?my eyes are somewhat tired but i just cant get to sleep.and they are burning now...trying to stay open though my power meter is like almost depleted...

sigh...gona be working 6 shifts this week man...suck...monday and tuesday night shift...wednesday break...thursday and saturday morning shift then friday and sunday night shift...sheesh...totally sianness...and it's irritating to have colleagues who keep asking to switch shifts here and there...what the hack sia...always choose when they want to work...then gives like any excuses they can get just to push their shift to someone else...

anyway,that's the last time i'll be changing shifts since i'm starting school in like 3 week?so i'm not gona change my shifts anymore...after this coming week,i'm gona make sure they wont get what they want...especially if they try to switch with me again.

oh well..i'm getting pissed just typing this part out...so time to change subject. really thankful for esther and my lil sis who have been of great encouragement to me...and surprisingly,they're the ones who kinda made me realised how much i've drifted away from God...and how simple words of encouragement could have such a great impact on me to make me want to change again.finally,now that i have 2 sisters to be accountable for,i really wish that God will help me to sustain what i've promised Him and to carry on in faith and trust in Him.

so that's it for now...gona update more on my new life soon!

hmm..."if you can't let go to God,maybe you're not ready yet."this sentence caught my attention...really a big thank you to esther for sharing.thank you :) did some thinking and hey,this sentence really do kinda make sense when you think about it.

it fits in perfectly into my situation now,and i did prayed about it using this sentence...doing this,i really felt God touching my heart,and telling me to let go to Him,really...to trust in Him at all time and lean not on my own understanding. really felt His assurance resting upon my shoulders.

and i have decided,to seek ye first the kingdom of God,and His righteousness;and all things shall be added unto you.-matt 6 33- hmm...thank God for reminding me of this verse.

gona knock out soon..quite a tiring day for me,busy with work in the morning and playing soccer at night,which added on injuries to my feet too...broken blisters and blood blisters...ouch.oh well...really gona be *lame* tomorrow,can't really walk properly..-shrugs-

hope to look forward to a great service tomorrow,yup,worship,listening to God's word and all,and most importantly,enjoying the fellowship of my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ which i realised i have neglected for a long time.

another tiring day at work...phew...i think i'm really getting old...but heck,haha...had fun at work today...and it was quite interesting to have almost all the lunching customers to be from 3M.lol.and the funny thing was having one of the customer's to give us his suggetions..."it's time...to change your menu!"haha...though it was kind of insulting in a way,the way they speak to me and demanding for this and that...but it's ok,they're the customers.

anyway,it's becoming somewhat irritating,when people keeps disturbing me about her and stuff...ahh...though i don't really mind about it...it's really gona get to my nerves sooner or later...crap...and i'm still can't figure out esther know about it...haha...whatever..

but one thing my colleage said,that i think it's quite true...that i should at least let her know how i feel...even if we were not meant to be...she have the right...so now i'm really stuck in-between telling or not telling...guess i'll have to wait for my advise to arrive...before i ever make any move.

bleh...bleh...bleh...just wana bleh out my day....ahhhh.....blehblehblehblehblehblehbleh
blehblehblehblehbleh!!!!!!!!whoohoo...feel so much better now!yawn...sleepy...

72 hours locked up at home...not really locked up but as in i didnt step out of my home for 72 hours since sunday afternoon 3pm till today 3pm...wow...finally got to go out though it's for work but heck,i'm out of the house for at least 5 hours.

though it was almost as boring at work as being at home...at least got things to do...wash dishes,swepp floor,mop floor,and ohoh!my favorite,washing toilet!hahaha...plus crapping with my buddy.haha,yup,had quite some fun when i work with chris and jen.

after work came straight back home...kind of tired just cleaning up,lol...guess i've been bumming for too long...72 hours...anyway,i can't believe that ah leong actually managed to figure out the girls whom i used to like man...like magic..lol,and she knows who i like currently too...quite stunned but surprise and amazed too.

especially since i have always thought that i managed to cover up well enough...seems like my blog is actually blowing my cover...lol...since i thought that not much ppl will read,i kinda blog almost everything inside...so i guess i better be more careful about it...the internet world is really beyond our thoughts..

i was thinking,what will happen if i were to tell you that i like you..
and here's some of my imaginations:
1-you will freak out and never talk to me again
2-you will be quite amused by me
3-you will get a shock of your life and don't know what to do
4-you will be excited about it
5-you will be somewhat please or happy
6-you will get angry about it
7-you have no feelings about it
8-you don't want to get together
9-you cannot face me
10-you will hate me for life

i don't know,that's just some thoughts that went through my mind just now...i just hope that at least,you do like me in a way,maybe for starter,as a friend who is concern over your well being.i have the urge to tell you right now but i don't want you to get hurt now.especially if your getting hurt comes from me.

i have to admit i'm pretty rush in my head but i'm still able to get some control over my mind.trying hard to keep that balance between friendship and relationship.can't tip it over so much so that you are overwhelmed by how i feel for you.preventing myself from over expressing my thoughts and feelings when talking to you kind of helps,so i will continue to watch my footing.

guess i wasn't feeling too well last night...couldn't sleep though my eyes were kind of dry and tired...so i stayed up till about 2am before going to bed..but that was before i forced myself to vomit out some of my dinner...after which i felt much better.

woke up feeling so much better than how i was feeling last night,physically and emotionally i guess..now i'm quite sure how i feel about you,but i think i will have to put it aside for now,till i'm more ready.

anyway,school's gona be starting soon,in about 2 to 3 weeks.so i guess i'm left with quite little time till studies start once again.better spend some time cutting away the extra weight.lol better stop all the eating and drinking...

bleh...i can tell something's going on here...things seem different...like there's some awkwardness in the air...maybe i shouldn't have sent that msg...

century egg with lean meat and liver porridge for breakfast...interesting combination which lasted in my stomach till lunch.wow,amazing...lunch was super filling due to the large pepsi with so little ice...the counter gave me lesser ice than what i usually remember they will give...so i got bloated with all the gas...eww...

now it's so boring with nothing to do at home...waiting till 6pm,then it will be tv time all the way till 11pm..wahaha,6-7pm,myth busters,7-9pm,the channel 8 show and 9-11pm,cable tv e-city.

hectic work...stressful day...no time for break...tiresome hours...that's the deal for the day...

quiet journey,fast and efficient,that's the appetizer for the day...

warm friendship,fruitful worship,strong presence of God,peace at heart,wonderful cell meeting,that's the main dish for the day...

rest at last,music at play,relaxation...that,is the dessert of the day...

i'm really falling for you...you may not know...but i like you...

i shouldn't be falling for you i guess...but i just cant help it...

even if i made the decision,i hope that at least i made one...

but i'm just so afraid...that its the wrong decision...

i'm always thinking in the negetive side...sigh...

someone tell me what to do...


"i like you too..." thats the answer i'm looking for...

my panda eyes are back to haunt me...shit...went to lucky plaza and bugis today...and to think i thought i was going to buy contacts,drew 100 bucks and now they're still in my wallet...bleh...chris got his friens to give me 3 pair of trial contacts...al three different brand.lol

so now i have in total 4 pairs to last another 4 months i think...hope that i can find one pair that suits me eyes,then really go buy..haha...oh well...working shifts keep changing here and there...so much...tml surpose to work night,then change with one colleage to sat morning,then now tomorrow working morning to cover another colleage who's clearing leave...

now super tired...and my panda friends are back to say hi,we're here to stay...crap...my eyes gona pop out soon man...super tired...and my eyes are almost blood shot now,all the blood vessels are popping out till i can see them from the mirror reflection...uper straining to just look at the screen so i better go soon...

had suki sushi for lunch and dinner today,ate the lunch buffet which lasted in my tummy till even right now..haha,had sashimi,nigiri,temaki,chawamushi...alot...lol.ate till my bro and i both super bloated..haha,then had soya bean milk after which we went to simlim square to get dvd-r..

then we bought bubble tea on the way home...super yao gui man...haha,but had quite alot of fun...and we really talk crap through out the day man...haha,and there were like so much eye candies around at sim lim today :P...so many chio bus around.haha,but heck,i have someone in mind :)

gona be getting contacts tomorrow before going to work..wahaha,gona spend like $100 again i guess...my $$ gona fly...sob..haha...crap..thinking of getting colored contacts but have to see how first...since its much more expensive...maybe i'll get a pair of green or hmmm...say,purple?haha...see how,just for the fun of it...and its my own money anyway..

oh well,gona go sleep soon...slept late laste night so feeling kina tired now...and my panda eyes are back once more...they visit me so often these few days...seem like they like my eye bags..lol...kk...

oh me god...i really cannot believe my lil sis got it right on the first try...how does she know anyway?but really clever guess lil sis :) -stand up and lap hands- lol...my lil sis indeed...

like what i said,it's a liking...and i cannot confirm my true feelings yet...i need to know you better..and i do hope to know you better...yup,sigh...i wish i can just open up my feelings to you...but it may be a wrong move or a right one...we'll never know...since i still can't make up my mind and come to a decision yet...

bleh...haha...hope that tomorrow can get to eat sushi...if all goes well...and maybe thursday gona be getting new contacts,that is if chris decides he will be getting since its from his friend's shop...either that, or another time then go.yup

overall today was ok,spent the day at work and the evening at home relaxing...so i guess it's kina good in some way :) at least i don't waste the day away doing nothing.so oh well :D

hmmm...another day spent idling away...didn't really do much constructive things today...a slow day though...help my thinking to slow day,which was good i guess...didn't really haveto think much...since the long day kina made me relax in some way...

gona be working tomorrow morning...so at least the day will be spent well i guess...having fun at work and at least feeling alive...holidays really have changed...in the past,it used to be full of exciting activities going on but now,everyone seem too busy for anything...thus the quiet holidays slipping by silently...

by the way,HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANET!haha

i'm really really really super duper tired...i can feel my body combusting from within...burning up the extra fuels just to sustain me from falling asleep...zzz...ahh...my head is spinning soon...partly because i'm hungry...

just ate noodles,and took a bath...now feeling much better but still quite tired...haiz...anyway,been caught up with work this week,yup..some more is 3 days straight...and last night i got dragged down for supepr as well...bleh...didn't wanted to go but no choice...so ended up being tired...

and i really don't know how to answer your question...omg lor...it's like you are the answer but you just have to ask that question...so i was totally thrown off guard...didn't know how to give my answer...in the end,it seem that you kina brush it off...oh well...i still need time i guess...to know you better,and to observe more before i take any actions...in case the same old thing happen...yup..

my body is breaking down...indigestion,irregular sleeping timing,constant input of energy from junk food...etc etc...

i'm killing myself slowly...slowly but surely...and the signs are showing...i'm losing sleep at night again...all thanks to over eating in the afternoon causing me to hibernate till evening...and with the excess energy input,i have to release them over the night by staying up late...since staying up late requires more energy to keep the eyes open and to feed the brain.

by doing that,my eye bags are getting worse by the days till i'm almost turning into a panda...no kidding...and my eyes are always feeling tired and burnt out...though i can't get to sleep...and wearing contact lenes feel so uncomfortable...sigh...even right now,my eyes are drooping off but the energy input are trying to sustain my eyes from closing...

and though the energy stored up are almost all used up...i still cant really sleep..feeling the late dinner inside my stomach burning and releasing energy slowly...speaking of which,the stomach is almost 99% asleep...which means the food inside are not really digesting,so i'll be running for the loo the first thing in the morning when i wake up i guess...and boy do they smell bad...eww...

ahh...and i'm feeling so irritated too...things happening at the cafe...seems like liquids 1 is not going to hold much longer...and some problems from cake avenue...the missing monster...seems that no one has been able to contact her for a month...and when her boss tired calling her place,she didn't want to answer the phone...and no one knows what had happened...some how i don't want to bother but is it because of what happened during the christmas party last year?if it is...then i'm partly responsible for whats happening...sigh...

and my heart is acting up again...not as in heart attack but my heart is flying all over the place...back to square one...but not with the same person this time...and i don't know how to go about it...again...bleh...same situation,just got to know the person for not too long,chatted a bit here and there,and my heart acts up again...as if i don't have problems already...really sucky man...crap...

bad tummy ache...been running in and out of the loo the whole day...bombarding going on and on...ouch...lots of ammos but the gunner is tiring out and the gun is burning hot...ouch...

think i shouldn't have napped in the afternoon after my lunch,now all the food inside are all prediguested...eww...enough of that...making me wana puke..lol

can't beleive i'm watching hana kimi with my mom and sis...omg...and the songs are like all jamming in my head...ahh...especially the starting song by S.H.E...again!!!its jamming in my head...ahhhhh.....

i'm really feeling bored..though i'm working part time,the days when i'm not working,it's really boring...time passes by so slowly it's killing me...but it also gives me more time to think...are sparks flying again?am i turning my attention towards you more?i think so...but i have to be careful this time...i don't want history to repeat itself...so,i better look before i take my step.

i have been having thoughts about you more these few days...and i'm afraid...that these thoughts are affecting me the same way it did the last time,that ended up in me wasting my time and all on someone who ended up hating me...i need some assurance,maybe form you but i don't know how it's gona happen...

oh well...maybe i'll really only know how when the time comes...i just realised i've always said that...but the time never seem to come....sigh...sometime i just wana see into my future...but it's not possible...bleh...ahh...thinking too negatively now....think possitive!think possitive!!i better end before my morale drops..

how did i ever got myslef involve in some funny tagboard incident?i have no idea...eww....and they are making a big fuss our of it...oh nononononono!...

on the other hand,had deli france for lunch today,haha...jia ying's treat..lol,a so called belated clecbration of the publicity job well done :D great work team.haha..pirates of the community!you peeps rock!

and i finally had breakfast with my cell after so long..haha,hadn't been around for almost a month already and during cell yesterday,we were surpose to write some good points for each other but almost all who wrote for me kina wrote a mini letter instead...haha, a mini letter saying they haven't seen me around for so long and stuff...so haha...

oh well,working tomorrow morning,been so long since i last worked in the weekday morning...hope that i can cope with the lunch hour...especially since chinese new year is officially over..haha...

super shag...been sleeping at like 3am in the morning the whole of this week...and waking up at 9am or after...but still...never really got enough sleep though i slept for like 6 hours cause i always wake up in the middle of my sleep...think my insomia is acting up again...

my eyes are practically half closed now...and one thing i realised is that having to share room with my sis can be quite a pain at times,especially when she sleeps late just watching her shows on her laptop when my bed is right beside the table...crap...then she always laugh and stuff then don't switch off the lights...

and her holidyas are coming...ahh....even worse,can't get any good night's rest properly...sian...but anyway,i'm glad i did got for cell today..it's been like almost a month since i appeared in church officially..haha...yup,am glad to be in my cell who always encourages me and never letting me go..thanks a real load poppies!haha

gona have breakfast with them tomorrow morning and then lunch with the construction sight(or was it site?) as a thankyou lunch..lol,really had fun working with them for the fact camp 2006 publicity and being one of the aye aye caption crunch!haha..oh well,those were the times..yup

totally out now...tired...but again,my sis's watching her videos...bleh...

another day past me by...again...boring...so much so that half the went was wasted away by me napping from 2:30pm till 6:30pm yet again..why do i use again?cause the same thing happened on monday...and both days were raining cats and dogs....sigh...though i did went swimming in the morning,it only ate up 1 1/2 hour of my 24 hour....so the day's been pretty much wasted...

at the rate it rains,i'm gona be hibernating through out my holidays...crap la...there's really almost nothing to do during my holidays...besides working part time...sheesh...how am i to spend my time away without wasting them?

another day past me by...again...boring...so much so that half the went was wasted away by me napping from 2:30pm till 6:30pm yet again..why do i use again?cause the same thing happened on monday...and both days were raining cats and dogs....sigh...though i did went swimming in the morning,it only ate up 1 1/2 hour of my 24 hour....so the day's been pretty much wasted...

at the rate it rains,i'm gona be hibernating through out my holidays...crap la...there's really almost nothing to do during my holidays...besides working part time...sheesh...how am i to spend my time away without wasting them?