a short review of my week.

monday-first day of my second yr in np.met new classmates n old classmates.new teachers n classroom,and my laptop developed a mini crack...wow...'nice event to start my week with'...wat e heck...

tuesday-again,new teachers,new modules and omg...tat freaking virus is in my class for one module!!!freaking smelly virus...u go to hell!u go to hell n u die!haha..lol

wednesday-10am to 1pm...den can go home...so xong!provided i don dota after school.

thursday-9am to 2pm.extra 2 hr but still early enough incase i work at nite.at least can go home sleep 2 hrs den go work.so not so shack.

friday-my favourite:) 1pm to 5pm.only e teacher lazy to keep us so long.so will end about 3pm every friday...yeepee!!den at nite can play game liao...hehe...no need to rush home also...den coming monday public holiday.good.can take a break.

ok...end of review for my week...really short rite?hehe...lol...gona go bomb...tata

wow...second dae of school has already past...and it seem its gona be a great year for me.at last!teachers who are friendly n can count on...whoohooo...and new classmates too!yay...

slowly adjusting back to life in school with my good friends...tho our previous class had almost split till like everyone's in some other class and not together anymore...but its quite a good change i'd sae.tho i'll miss some of my brothers...anyway.new friends n alot of my best friends are still in e same class as me...hehe...

kk...got to go....tata

hmmm...life's gona be packed wif school once again...and i'm still in a holidae mood...as usual...i'll proberbly need another one to two weeks to adjust to the changes yet again...and to adjust my sleeping time,playing time to fit in my studies...also...not to forget my work...alamak...it juz came to my reliasation tat there's actually not much people working at the cafe current...and they always have to get me to work...tho i never really liked working on week nights during schooling days...haiz...

yet now...i should be preparing for school tml but somehow i don wana do tat...cos my stuffs are getting kina dusty after i left them at e open area under my study desk...hmmm...for like almost 2 months?eww...and i'm still feeling abit xiang tho its so much better already...looking at e current situation i'm in,and observing her,it seem clear tat i should juz loosen my grip and juz carry on...sigh...wat to do?its all kina my fault...for not showing tat i care...and she seem so happy now wif her life.seem like it's the end for me...

well...life still has to move on...tho i'll still cling on to e tiny hope that's growing smaller as e daes go by.

school is starting tml...sadsad...anyway...i managed to pull tru year 1...yay!!now i need to survive year 2 with new modules,new teachers n new classmates...wish me luck:)

ok...its 5am and i'm still awake...shit man...think my sleeping times screwed super badly...and i'm sure gona die if i don get to sleep soon...most likely gona go sleep in about 30mins time...if not sure sie one...and my stomach isn't feeling too well...feel like vomitting but cant...

e feeling's disgusting....super duper disgusting...its like u feel e rumbling in ur stomach n there's this foul taste tat keep going up from e throat to ur taste buds...making u feel faint but somehow u juz cant vomit cos ur stomach's empty...yucks......e taste came up again...n my stomach is generating alot of gas which make me burb e foul taste out....ewww....

tonite better be e last nite i'm sleeping late...cos starting sch next week liao...sian....anywya...gona sleep liao...cos morning gona go buy dao hue jiu...haha....long time no drink for breakfast liao...hehe...kk...better go liao...

zzz...seems i'm losing my sleep at nite...cant get to bed till about 3am...been doing that for like e past 2 daes?and todaes e third...so now...i'm juz trying to burn out as much energy as possible so i can go sleep...if its possible...might be able to sleep earlier tonite...cos i'm feeling abit tired out liao...so hope can get to bed soon...ah...my lovely bed...lol

Almost One Long Month...and i'm back...not becos my blog is rotting...but i realised i have e need to pen down wats in my mind to release e stress...kina like a drug for me...

yup...so its back to my thoughts and feeling...went over to alpha's place at clementi on fridae nite to camp over and to "prepare" for e BBQ on sat evening...we were like retards,cooking almost a full packet of 5kg rice...nuts rite?meant for fried rice but in e end,cher hao had to bring half of e cooked rice back...lol....BBQ was great.had fun and lotsa great food...tho i over ate...hehe...

anyway,realised tat while i was on my way down to meeting cher hao n clarence...e sad feelings came back...ouch....was feeling quite xiang...haiz...den all was forgotten when we reached alpha's place...cos its x box n ps2 time!afer all e playing n cooking of rice,i kina knocked out...so went to sleep liao...everything was alright when we woke up...till it was almost time for BBQ...couldn't get my thoughts of her...felt quite low n stuff...but somehow i managed to keep it all down...

den finally,BBQ time...when we started e BBQ...it was kina weird...cos every single person was like poking their heads to e pit trying to cook some food...no point me sticking my head over to get barberqued...so i set down on e table...when e BBQ was reaching peak...i kina over ate liao...so i juz sat down at a corner by myself...tat was when all e shitty feelings came back yet again...haunting me...making me feel low as ever...den when i looked around...i realised tat everyone was happily eating and chatting wif each other...either e couples or the cliques...i was e only one keeping silent to myslef...

and to think tat weird thoughts i had before kept coming back...thoughts i had when i was torn between figuring out who i really liked...and i wasn't really happy about those thoughts(not those kina dirty thoughts), cos its actually questioning e commiments i had set for myself to keep...commiments which meant alot to me...so i was like processing those thoughts for almost 30min...in silent...till someone came over to sit beside me...and asked why i wasn't eating...which actually make everything worse...tho i didn't show it out...kept them all inside...

e fact tat i was already feeling quite low and e person who was kina in those thoughts talk to me suddenly really made everything kina worse...tho i tried my best to ensure tat my thoughts n feelings doesn't get in e way...it was quite tough for me...i have to admit to tat...cos after e BBQ,e whole gang went back up to alpha's place to relax before leaving...and i was like spending almost half e time up there staring at e person?oh man...it really suck i would say...to have some feelings for another person when i'm trying to commit my feelings to her...kina pissed wif myself...

haiz...looks like its gona take me alot of time before i can really focus on my thoughts and commitments...sigh...juz wish tat somehow,things are different from e current situation...i should really look away from my problems and focus on Jesus...i noe tat only He can solve my problems...but i juz wont turn to Him...can someone show me e way?maybe a good nite's sleep and a good dream will help...its 2am in e morning now...guess i better rest soon...