ok...so all is done...and over...which is actually a great relief for the family....having been at my grandma's funeral wake for the past 4 days from early afternoon till about 12 midnight surely has taken its toll on the whole family,especially my dad who from what i see,took it the hardest...after all,it was his mom who past on....

been helping out at the wake for the past 4 days and spending half my time eating peanuts...lol...when there was nothing to do la,of cos when things were needed to be done, we had to get down to work cos my bro and i are the only guys around who doesnt follow the ritual cos our family is a christian family and they need us to help carry tables and stuff...which ended up with me injuring my left big toe while carry one of the round table tops...

dropped right on my toe and caused a swelling which enlarged my toe to about 1.5 times the normal size....ouch...and i cant bend my toe cos the tendon is injured...ewww...sigh...at least i did my part...the only thing i regret was the fact i couldn't send my grnadma on her last journey...cos i had a major test today which clashes with the timing for the cremation...

den again...the test is a goner and if i had known,i would not have stayed in school for the rest of the lessons...espcially PCN...e bloody module which i thought the revision for the up coming test was some important shit...which in the case...wasnt....so i'm pretty sad about the whole thing...if only i had known...but its all too late now...its all over...the funeral,cremation,last good bye...

sigh...now...just hope my dad will be able to get on with life and move on,hopefully the family will be able to stand together as one after this and help my dad take it easy.

phew...finally had time to update...been wanting to do some updating since last sat but always interupted by my bro...lol

ok...had a great weekend,mainly enjoying cell and soccer on sat-tho i busted a few blisters on my feet and recieved a new blood blister too.ouch...anyway,soccer was fun and i was able to do some running cos i had enough sugar in my body for the extra energy i need.got them from the cafe-had a few great drinks which i made.hehe.

den on sunday,went for steamboat dinner with my family. had lotsa fun tho i burnt my arm hair...haha but we never really ate much,somehow everyone was like quite full and all while i was still going strong,guess they're all too old for buffets anymore.hehe.
thats for the week end.

for the past few days,or rather yesterday and today,did e same old rutine,school in the morning,till evening den home sweet home.but today was abit different,was released earlier for home den i wanted to go take a look at some wire extension but i forgot all about it den i went straight home...so maybe tml den will go look for some wires.wat for? u ask? for my head set which is too short...the extension provided was too short too,so i nned to get one which is long enough.yup

tats about all i've been doing the past few days.and lil sis,don worry too much about me being sad and stuff over my grand ma cos i'm really ok. :)

waiting...for such a long time...and still waiting...tho i wanted to stop and move on...but it seem i cant let go still...still holding onto it...still waiting for her...which seemed totally impossible now...rally really want to quit and just end the chapter here...move on with my life and hopefully forget all the feelings and thoughts i've had...

on top of that,many things are happening now...changes are appearing every single day of my life...and somehow they slip past me without me realising...
by the time i do realise...its all too late...sigh...

to top it off,my grangma's slowly wasting away...as what they put it...the cancer had spread from her stomach to the rest of the body and doctors say she has maybe a few more months left....the thing is they cant feed ehr now...due to ehr vomiting watever they feed her...so its a slow and painful time for her now...which is making me sad...

her condition has worsen since her return to the home from alexandra hospital with a dislocated shoulder...which occured when they tried to lift her off the bed...wat i cant believe was that the ppl at AH didnt even bother to fix her shoulder cos they say theres no use in doing that...which pissed me off totally...haiz...

just seeing her lying on the bed looking so much worse than before made me realised tat life can really be painful and tat one wont cherish their loved ones till its all too late...which is now for me i would say...just hope tat everything will turn out well no matter wat happens in the future..

almost one week...i'm tired....as in now...my eyes are drooping off slowly...having trouble keeping them open...zzz...pretty much caught up with digimon world 2 this week...the reason for my being tired...and dong chores like watering the plants,mopping the floor,keeping clothes and my speciality-wasing dishes...lol

going to sch tml tho i have no lesson...just to play dota with the gang...so i'm wondering if i should go or just stay home to digimon world 2...and to get the sleep i need badly...haven been sleeping enough tru out the week...shag...will see if i can wake up in time tml to go down...if not,well...tats too bad den...

two principle of the anchor:
number 1:u will never realise how important the anchor is until u are in the storm.
number 2:it depends on how tight the anchor holds on to u,not u to the anchor.

i'm tired...just so tired...
feeling dry as each day goes by...
there seem no purpose in waiting...
waiting...just waitng...for that day to come...
that day where i'll have the courage...
the courage to say i love u...

finally...finished my I and E project...the exibition was quite good actually...we got quite a few friends to come post for us..hehe...then we took photos to show as prove since our mentor in charge wasn't free to go down for the exibition...lol

good thing he cant make it...cos we were half faking the whole thing-even got mr lee to come support us and take photo with us..haha...we will be creating a mini web containing the info and the photos of the exibition so u ppl can take a look too...just ignore the icecream tubs and cones...lol

we had to buy some tubs of icecreams from the other stall to get them to post for us,s it's a u help me i help u kina thing...quite interesting tho,and we had lots of fun doing the stupid things there...like playing worms on one of the com while the rest were taking photos,copping some of the icecream for ourselves and stuff...den we messed up the tables with the icecreams...so had to clean up before we leave the place..

over all,all was good that ended well right?ya...so tml morning gona be in sch in the morning to finalise the web site and to sum up our project with one last report and another personal journal and submit them in online tru our sch site.yup

gona sign off for now

today didnt really started well...woke up at 940am from my friend's sms...surposed to wake up at 7am...y?cos my class starts at 10am...so naturally,i was in a state of panic...in the end,my dad gave me 20 buck to take a cab down to school...but most proberbly i'll return to him la.den the cab fee i pay myself lor...wat to do right?

i justdon understand y my alarm didnt ring again...or maybe it did...i wont know...all tat i know was my alarm was off when i woke up...haiz...hope the later part of the day will be better...

whoohooo!!finally i got my very own dvd set of at the dolphin bay!!!yayness!i'm so happy...wahahahahaha...got it at poh kim for a 50% off and my mom got it for me as an early present.thanks mummy!!

really love that show.of cos,who else but Angela Zhang Shao Han staring as the lead actress!wow...showed on channel u before it shut down.anyway,this is going into my collection along with the others....yay...lol haha---here's a picture of the cover.nice right?ya i know..lol happy like bird :D

sniff...sniff...my nose is running like a tap right now...sniffff......feel so sick...but hey,i'm sick...so ya..sniffing away almost the whole day liao...not to mention e constant sneezing that goes along with my sniffing...it started from the left half of my nose...den it affected my left eye causing it to water...or rather-tear...totally affected my eating at sakae sushi just now...but nevertheless,i ate till i cant move..lol...

den it spreaded to the other half of my nose as well...so now its my whole red running nose driving me nuts...have to go to e wash room every couple minutes to clear the cannel...haiz...ate panodol cold at 2 anf just now...but hey only make me sleepy...but not helping with the cold...oh man...i'm gona be sneezing the whole night i guess....wat to do?stupid nose,cut it off la...as wat my bro would say...but no i will not do tat...i'll look so retarded i'l go jump...just kidding

oh ya...good thing i didnt go to sch today...my freaking group leader got messed up about whether theres lesson today...den he called jerffrey,out mentor and he said yes,pls come...but i remembered clearly tat we only need to return to his lesson on the 12th week which is the coming week...so i asked my other group member zul and he told me that he msged the other groups about it and so we found out tat no one actually knows tat we were to go sch today...and so i got e leader to check again and he say he will go to see wat jeffrey have to say...good

cos at about 1:35pm(35minutes into the lesson),zul sent me an sms saying the lesson only lasted 30minutes and he was totally pissed ff...whew...if i had gone,i'll like travel for at least 1 1/2 hour before i get to sch,stay there for 1/2 hour and take another 1 1/2 hour journey home...so basically,i'll be spending 3 freaking hours on journey just for a 30minutes lesson...wat the heck?no way am i so stupid to do tat...its just a waste of my time...so thankfully,i skiped the lesson.and with the condition i'm in right now,i'll proberbly not last the freaking heat out in the sun for 3 hours...

yup...good thing i stayed at home...got to watch my lovely angela singing for an interesting talk show...lol...haha...i so love her :)
MY FAVOURITE IDOL OF ALL TIMES! ANGELA ZHANG SHAO HAN! I LOVE YOU! LOL

feeling much better today,with a good night's rest the the whole day of relaxing...only thing is tat i cant believe brazil lost to france at a freaking 1-o score...totally cant believe it man...but it's a fact...and brazil's out....sigh...now i cant really be bothered with the world cup liao...since brazil is out...

and good thing nobody msged me today.esp ppl from church...if not, i'll be stuck in square 1...which totally sucks...btw,since my maid left for holiday for 3 wks back home,i'll be stuck with washing the toilets at home...crap...just becos i wash toilets at liquids means i have to wash toilets at home...OMG...

watever la...tml going back to sch so i'll be yet again,home for the night during the week days again.think i'll spent my days out during the wks ahead.unless....something pops out...and i better sleep early...no one to wake me up for sch fro 3 weeks...wow...

I'm seriously pissed off and totally f**ked up now...in a super bad mood swing.
And i cant think of anything to express the hatred and anger i'm feeling now...
so ppl....just shut the f**k up and leave me to be...

I'm gona go kill some AI worms now.