pirates 3-not bad,but draggy...and some points doesn't really link up to each other...though the actions are quite good...alot of fillers and comic relieve in the 3rd movie...ooh well...worth the 8 bucks spent on the movie i guess...oh--and the $4.50 spent on the jumbo hot dog..haha

common test in 4 days time...sigh...and i haven't prepare for it yet...not in the mood for exams and tests...i really wana quit school and start working!!!but i can't...there's still 2 years of services to the nation...pui...i hate my life...

having a small quiz tomorrow afternoon...and the time has come to see the module leader...bet you he's gona crap and crap and crap like don't know what...we'll see about that...

ok...went to the doctor today for my cough...spent 2 freaking hours sitting there while freaking asses kept cutting the queue and complaining the doctor was taking f***ing long...seriously...one freaking fat ass hole was cursing in hok kien...

then coincidentally...my classmate called to ask if i was going to school,then he informed me that our lecturer,whom we're surpose to have lessons with from 11am to 5pm,was on mc...and my poor friend only found out after he went to school...lol...great pal though,informed me about it...great buddy.

after consulting the doctor...went home to rest,and then...well...i knew it was coming...the EE office called me to inform me to meet up with the EID module leader,Mr Yang on friday...going to have a nice little chat with him about the module...hopefully,if possible,i can drop it for this sem and cramp it in the next sem...

since i missed like 3 out of 6 pratical lessons,and afew of the lectures due to me falling sick for the past few weeks...yup,hope that nothing bad will happen.

other than that,not much thing going on today...spent the afternoon napping...

common test time table still not out yet...and the only thing i know is next week is common text week...bleh...but anyhow,at least after all this is over,i'll have my 2 week break finally...looking forward to the break where i can take my mind of school...and concentrate on work :)

lost alot of chance to work since i started school and falling sick...sigh...for this month,my income's like only about $200...pathetic i'll say...my normal pay is at least $300 and above...it shows how little i've been working this month...bleh...

and damn...i over coughed till i vomited just now...wtf...stupid cough...damn it...sian...don't feel like posting liao...

bleh...still cant get to bed...my sis is blasting her bloody laptop...again...last night,all i heard was the clicking of her mouse...now i don't even want to be in the room till she decided to go to bed...

and my chest is hurting badly...from over coughing...and who to blame?myself...that's who...and i'm feeling sucky again...totally...i realised i haven't really gave up yet...still having thought about you..sigh....

some times i really wonder...what am i really thinking?again...the same question i always asked myself...bleh...don't wana think of it liao...

Lemon Tree

I'm sitting here in the boring room
It's just another rainy Sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time
I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast
I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree

I'm sitting here
I miss the power
I'd like to go out taking a shower
But there's a heavy cloud inside my head
I feel so tired
Put myself into bed
Well, nothing ever happens and I wonder

Isolation is not good for me
Isolation I don't want to sit on the lemon-tree

I'm steppin' around in the desert of joy
Baby anyhow I'll get another toy
And everything will happen and you wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
And I wonder, wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see, and all that I can see, and all that I can see
Is just a yellow lemon-tree

this long forgotten song invited itself into my mind...and hey...i know i saw some hidden meaning amongst these words...meanings that meant something to me at least...and its for me to know and for YOU,yes i mean YOU to find out...

oh well...dinner was great,had sakura international buffet...and ate alot of freaking sashimi,fresh scallops and mussels and ice-cream..wahah-cough cough cough-...that's the after effect...but hey,i had fun eating dinner with my family :D all six of us that is.haha,my parents,my sister,myelf,my brother and his wife-to-be..haha...

feeling quite bloated now...and coughing so much makes it worse...i feel like i'm gona cough out my dinner any time soon...at the rate i cough,really...it hurts my throat and voice...and i sound like a stranger now...bleh...tomorrow gona go hunt for the speaker phone that you want,hopefully i can find it...since i'm ending class at 2pm,and i still have some time before my exams starts after this week...yup

...coughing and coughing none stop...sucks man...no phlegm but just keep coughing...at the rate i'm going...sure to get tb one...zzz...pui...cursing myself...but i think the cough is really getting very bad...almost none stop coughing...even when i'm sleeping...haiz...

hope that tomorrow won't be that bad...imagine coughing my way through service...sucks right?and the cough is freaking loud...@#$%....here i go again...ouch...my throat hurts...

sometimes i just hate the guts out of myself...and now is the time...

finally,i went back for thursday lesson...haha...missed like 2 weeks of thursday lessons already...been sick since 2 thursday ago and still,my cough isn't getting any better but getting worse...though the phlegm is almost all gone...but my nose is still running it's marathon...bleh...oh well..

haven't been doing much this week...still in the slow placed mode...haven't pick up much speed yet...i will need to pick up 200% speed by next week man...if not i'm sure to fail my tests...another bleh...stupid tests...

still pondering over the same old thoughts...nothing much changed about me...but i can see changes among the people around me...hmmm....i wonder what it means...am i really slowing down?or are the people around me moving on too fast?i think it's me...another bleh...

3 blehs in a row...and i'm out of things to blog about...i'm really slwing down i guess...freaking old me...the 4th bleh...

i'm hooked...to 300...haha...and i love it!Madness?THIS IS SPARTA!!...man i love that phrase...haha...oh well...though it's filled with gore...the action and bravery of the 300-i salute them...for they,born a spartan,train a spartan,fight a spartan,die a spartan...the spirit of spartan shall live on...HUHA!

300 spartans against 1 million persians-the odds are against them,but they fought,without fear-swords clashed,spears thrown,shields splintered...for 3 days and 3 nights,the spartans held their ground...one by one they fall...but not before taking down hundreds and thousands of the persian army...

arrows,which covered the sky in total darkness...rained down upon the 300...300 brave souls,who scarified their lives,for their people...the people of freedom...and now,10,000 spartans commanding 30,000 greek warriors...for the glory of the king leonadias,and the brave 300!HUHA!

finally,i'm almost well...after more than a week of being down with flu,i'm now 90% recovered..still having slight cough and running nose but the fever's finally gone...which is good.after all,due to my illness...i've missed out on 4 freaking days of school...which is freaking bad...missed out on so much things...and my studies are far far behind time...omg...

anyway,had a good weekend,spent friday and saturday night working and having fun.haha...today wasn't much though...everyone seem to be in their own world,doing their own things and again...just like usual...nothing changed...oh well...i guess that's how things have been going for so long already...and i should have gotten used to it by now...bleh...atmosphere in church is really chaning...i can tell...after being missing for a week,things seem slightly different...hmmm...

and i'm gona be missing cell this coming saturday,cause finally,i've been waiting for what-26 days?and they're finally showing zhang shao han's promo for her latest album on saturday.yay!!!haha...at 8pm on channel 56 on starhub cable.and i'm sure to be watching the debut...but i can't believed that i forgotten to buy a dvd player that can do recording...omg la...totally slipped my mind...how i just hope that i can find one before saturday arrive so that i can record the show down...

that's one thing to worry,another will be my common test...which is coming up in two weeks time...zzz...and i haven't really studied for anything yet...shit man...i'm so gona fail big time...hope that i can pull through this common test...4 of them in total...nasty...stupid school...for our first 2 years,we've only like 2 to maybe 3 core papers for each sem and then they slam us big with 4 core papers on our final year...totally stupid i tell you...and some more our last year is the most hectic year...wth man...sheesh...but hey,its 2 more weeks to prepare myself..so it's still not so bad...ok,i'm in self denial...fine...whatever...

zzz...fever came back to haunt me in the morning...another 2 days mc...but went to school anyway,since i need to hand in my lab report...after which i went back hme to rest...tomorrow have to go for lesson though...stupid,isn't it?down with flu for one week,thoguht that i'm almost well again then blam...the fever came back...

taking another dose of medication now...including my old medication which will finish tonight...sheesh...spent a total of let's see...$13.60 at polyclinic,$23 at medipoint clinic,$50++ at silver cross clinic and today,another $30 at silver cross...total up will be $100 odd spent on consultation and medication...all in the matter of 1 freaking week...

sucks big time...tomorrow night have to work though,so gona come back after my lesson then go to work..should have enough time for me to come back and rest awhile since my lesson ends at 3 and work starts at 7.hopefully,i'll be well by sunday...

so i'm recovering bit by bit...been resting at home for the past long 5 day weekend...still down with the flu bug but recovering.fever's almsot gone,leaving my body temperature to drop from 40.3 degree on saturday night to about 37.4 degree just now..though i'm still having blocked nose and super bad sore throat...and i can't really smell anything as yet...

my ear;s still abit block...but about half of it is cleared already...think a cuople more drops of the ear drop and a few more days should do the trick...though my flu will take a while more to recover...nasty flu...and from what i heard,it's the flu season for youngers and the fact that quite a number of my friends are down with flu too...think my case was quite bad...thankfully,i'm recovering well.

the only thing is,i'll have to rush out a group report and group presentation by this thursday...sucks man...think i'll have to get my team mates to chip in and help...bleh...hate this kinda thing to happen when i'm down with a nasty flu...stupid team mates...

going back to school tomorrow...hope that i can focus and stay alive for the whole day out at school...and in air-conditioned rooms for all my lessons...think i'll bring my jacket to school tomorrow.yup..and it's one more week to my lil sis 16th birthday :) wheeeeee..haha

update on my condition...

last night,my fever hit a rocket high of 40.3 degree...when my mom took my temperature,it was 39.3 degree...so she brought me to the clinic...that was when my fever rose again...and the doctor was kind of shocked when i told him that he's the third doctor i've went to so far...yup...gave me 2 different medicine for my fever,one to take if my fever hit 38.5 degree and above...and the other,to take all the way through..

also gave me cough syrup for my coughing and some antibiotics to help my body system fight the germs and bacterias invading my system...and i have such nice family :) my dad rushed back from driving taxi to pick me and my mom up to the clinic,and my sister and brother helped with making sure the towel on my head is kept constantly cold to bring down the fever :) my mom sat by my bed for about an hour too...making sure i'm ok :) thanks mom :) and my sister and my brother and my dad :) thanks to all of you :)

anyway,my temperature dropped till 37.8 degree just now,and my head is feeling much better...not like yesterday where my head was hurting and spinning the whole day.now i can think better and turn my head from left to right without feeling much pain :) but my throat is getting worse,all clogged up with phlegm...nasty...cant cough them out yet but shouldn't too...it'll only make my throat worse.yup...and the doctor gave me another mc for monday...so i have 3 mcs to submit when i return to school...

and one precaution that that doctor told me was that it could be dengue...thought dengue starts with fever,then the running nose and sore throat and stuffs start kicking in...me is the other way round...but have to be cautious,if the fever doesn't goes down by tuesday,and rashes starts appearing,i'll have to go back for blood test...hopefully it's nothing that serious.

this is the worse thing that had happen to me as of now...

fist,i caught the flu germs from my buddy in school...then while at work yesterday night,due to the flu medication making me drowsy...i broke a beer bottle while topping up my bar fridge and in the process of trying to save the bottle from breaking,cut myself...

and last night,my left ear was already blocked but today...it got worse...so i went to the doctor once again...and it was revealed to me that there is some but not alot of wax blocking the ear canal and it could be due to me trying to clean my ears yesterday but instead,i accidentally pushed the wax deep into the canal...bleh...

got some ear drop to soften the wax so that hopefully,it can come out easily...if by sunday it's still there...most probably i'll have to go back to the doctor for stringing...where they insert a huge metal pipe into your ear and pump jets of water into the ear to try and wash out the stubborn wax...did that before when i was younger...and boy do i still remember the feeling...it sucks...nasty ear wax...

flu's almost gone le...but now got the stupid ear problem...sheesh...hope that it will be better after tonight...if not then tomorrow i won't be able to go for cell retreat...sian...

so here i am...really down with flu...went to the doc just now for medication and mc...2 long hours of waiting...sheesh...but saw a really cute looking girl at the clinic.lol...and she's from ngee ann too.either year 1 or year 2,cause i remember seeing her in school before..haha...i have good memories :P

gona miss the stupid test for IED...then my freaking team mates are really asses...i'm sick and they keep asking me to do the freaking report for them...then last week,i was the only one doing all the prep for the presentation...then now they ask me to be the leader for PBL1...sucks...and i have to do everything...today gona heck care all the shit they throw at me...then next week then i hand in the bloody assignment...

gona miss a test later too...so see how things go for next week...if got time then maybe i take the test next week ba...heck ah...today is rest and relax day...a sick man's got to rest well to recover...so HECK CARE my bloody ASSIGNMETNS!

is it just me?or is a relationship starting without me knowing?...hmmm...it seem that way...the sudden msges out of no where,from that person to me and from me to that person sometimes...the long conversations we have...hmmm...i wonder....till now...i've always thought i take that person as a close friend...but maybe i'm wrong...i don't know...many thoughts are running through my mind right now...so many i can't think properly...

and i'm going down with flu...i think...been sniffing ever since i got home...and my throat's starting to turn sore too...urggg....took panadol cold just now...and i'm sniffing vapex now...just to clear my nose....oh man...and i'm working tomorrow and friday night...how am i gona survive the the day tomorrow?some more i've got a test in the afternoon...bleh...

got the germs from my classmate today...sigh...good buddies always pass illnesses and stuffs to me...the shitty stuffs...bleh...away from the topic...i'm exchanging msges with that person now.ok back to the topic---bleh...the panadol doesn't sem to be working...or is it working?no idea...hopefully will be better tomorrow morning...

my mom;s nagging me to go see the doctor tomorrow...sheesh...but no matter what,i have to appear in school to hand in our pbl 1...cause all the materials for my group are with me...shit...the most is i go see doctor in the morning...then in the afternoon,go down to school to hand in the things...then go back home to rest since i'll get a mc...the nat night go to work...hopefully i'm still alive then...it's getting real bad...*cough coguh*

gg to sleep soon...

stop schooling and start working...
stop wasting and start contributing...
stop taking and start giving...
stop...just stop...
start...just start...

routines...whether you love it or hate it...it's always there...
rules...whether you love it or hate it...it's always there...
boundaries...whether you love it or hate it...it's always there...
always and everywhere...
there's no end to it...

when the sun rises...another beautiful morn is born...
when the sun sets...darkness gloom over the world...
across the horizon...the sky seems to join the sea...
into the horizon...the sky is world apart from the sea...

pink...put it on a girl...she turns into a beauty...
pink...put it on a guy...it's time for crucifixion...
no doubt i hate pink...yet i love it too...
pink on girls looks great...
pink on guys is plain sin...

i look into the mirror...who is this i see in front of me?
i look into the mirror...i see many different sides of myself...
i look into the mirror...darkness eats into the different me...
do i truely know myself?no i doubt so...
who can truely know me?only God can...

monday morning...7:40am...i should be preparing for school now but i'm still using the computer...gona go for the afternoon lesson instead...really don't feel like going to school so early today....super sian...don't know why...starting to think too much again...zzz...

it's really my pattern to keep on thinking and thinking and thinking even after i told myself to stop thinking...bleh...the feeling sucks...and i'm getting more white hair...i think...errr...tired but don't wana go back to bed...gona spend the morning lazing away and maybe get my brains to stop thinking so much...it's getting overloaded....

and i'm starting to lose my concentration...bleh...i wana drink wine now....but ti's freaking 7:47am now...sheesh...and i'm out of cash for anything...better deposit my remaining pay into my account soon before i burn my pay out without knowing what i spent it on...i'm really going broke...

bleh bleh bleh...

psp is my best buddy since i bought it.haha-goes everywhere with me :)and chris is hooked to gundam seed.haha...everywhere he go with me must play gundam seed,omg man.

my plans to go taiwan with him to bagpack is all down the drain liao...cause my mom don't allow me to go overseas...crap lor...but nevermind,it's all for the best of us all..haha.oh well...

gona buy earphones tomorrow i hope.for my psp,thinking of gettign a retractable kind,so the wires wont be so messy...but the earphones i saw today was freaking 50 bucks...the one i saw last week at courts was 40 plus only...tomorrow go thomsom see got any with good pricing or not.

work was ok...not much things,same old same old...but everytime when someone order y/y(yakati yak),it just reminds me of yy...the new girl at the cafe...i'm really so "hua xin"...die ah...bleh...

feel like eating centuary egg porridge.haha,maybe tomorrow breakfast...yum yum...just make sure i don't have to go bomb after that,hahaha...then school on monday,full 5 day week again.

finally thursday is over...and it's e-learning for today!yay!!!lalalalalalala...haha,gona do the e-learning thing in the morning then afternoon gona slack.maybe in the evening going out.see how things go.yup.

lesson wasn't all that bad,except for the fact that i was the only one around doing the preperation for the presentation.my team members were all mia-ing...sheesh...one msg me in the morning saying he'll come abt 1++ which he did...and the other,he had to run between 2 room for the module and his fyp...haha...so i was the only one doing the prep...zzz

but over all was quite ok,though got abit of small hicups here and there.other than that,not much of a big deal.work however,was freakishly tiring...no idea why though.there wasn;t much customers compared to other nights but there seem to unending list of things to be done...and i had to help with the kitchen to do preperation again.

me and chris stayed till 12:am before we were almost ready to pack up and go.had so much to do...monstrasity...head over to the coffeshop opp my work place for supper,char siew rice again.haha...then cab back home...tired...but still waiting for my hair to dry before i go to bed.yup

good thing tomorrow can sleep in late and relax.haha.

awoke to find a gussy,cold and damp morning...took a look at the sky and it was all clouds...dark clouds at that...thought for 5 minutes,and the decision was made...

gona skip my 9am class since i will definately be late for the lesson due to the heavy downpour which lasted till about 10am.went back to sleep as i had a late night out yesterday.awoke again to go for my afternoon lesson at 1pm.

went for the pratical and yet again,we did the same thing,slack in the lab and copy down the information we needed for the lab-sheets.then went for tutorial...but hey,you know what?we camped outside the room from 3pm till 3:30pm and the tutor was still missing...

so we did the only saint ting we could do,we pack up and went back home.yup,so practically my day at school today was quite slack.but not for long,tomorrow's gona be a long day for me.gona be stuck inside the same room every thursday from 9am till 5pm doing research and presentations...

sucks big time but thats part of the process...problem based learning...or PBL for short...where the tutor gives us the outline for the day,the time where we need to get all the necessary info ready for presentation and off he goes...leaving us to do our own research.

and the stupid tutor gets paid for doing that...bleh...then after all the presentations,he'll sum up everything and blast the class till we are like some pathetic worm about to be squashed at his mercy...what rubbish we have to go through,after paying so much for our educations...this is what they make us do...sheesh...

at least friday is another day off...wheee...long week end.haha,but gona have to go online do some assignments for my IS before i'm really off for the week.yup,other than that,not much to do for friday so maybe i'll drop by the cafe for a meal or a drink.will see about that on friday.