i dreamt of you last night...though i doubt you know.. and i know that what i dreamt of will never become true...so, i'll just keep it as a precious memory...since the time is almost up,i shall not waste anymore time and silence effort in knowing you better...

just treat everything as a dream which came by suddenly and swept me off my feet for some time before settling down.now that i'm somewhat able to regain my foothold of that thin piece of land below,ii'll watch as the wave drift off till life goes back to normal, as normal can be.

i still feel like crap...and at least my buddys know why. and i thank them for understanding how i feel and not to further disturb me.sigh...i still don't understand your actions...and i think i will never understand...i feel like asking but i don't wana lose a friend...what can i do?how i wonder...

i'm tired of all this crap that people likes to disturb me for the fun of it...true,i don't really mind it but this time its really too far...i mean,if you want to disturb me,fine,why even drag the other two innocent girls in...come on la...to say sensitive stuffs like "your girlfriend this your girlfriend that" infront of the girls just to shoot at me...what the f**k?even i feel that it's offending to the girls...

and its really just irritating me and being a pain in my ass now...like everytime i see them they will make fun of me...it really turns me off from wanting to know the two better,just for being friends.now i really don't know where to hide my face when i see them around...good thing i didn't explode and go into berserk mode today,thanks to mag who stepped in to stop the nonsence...

HAUNTED APARTMENT

interesting show,though i was quite tired...the ocasional sudden sound effects kina kept me awake throught the show,if not for them,i'd probably be sleeping soundly throught out the whole show. sad story line,which was only revealed like at the end of the show.

protraits the story of a sexualy abused daughter who in the end, seeked revenge on her father by allowing the ghost who haunts the place to kill him. pretty good cover up which made people think that the ghost was haunting the girl at night with all the sound effects and mystries sand particles that appear on the side of her bed every morning.

when revealed, the story kina falls in place when the full puzzle was planted into the screen that it was the girl's drunked father who comes into her room every night to abuse her. and people would be like...oh,so that's what she was so afraid of...her monster father.

sadly,the same thing happened to the ghost who haunts the place while she was still alive many years ago. came back from school one evening to come face to face with a drunked dad who forces himself onto her...and when she resisted, the bastard pounded on top of the poor girl and strangled her to death.to top it off,he buried her body in one of the apartment's wall and covered it up with the sand like particles....totally disgusting...thus,leading to the cooperation of the ghost and the abused girl to killing her own father,or rather,let the ghost do the dirty job.

ending kind of sucks,i mean, the girl dug out the skeleton of th ghost and said that she will be with her forever.then it ends there...er...okkkk...so now what?the people left the place,her father died,and she's gona stay with the skeleton till kingdom come?come on...but then,nevermind...i feel that its worth the money but not if you really want to get frighten or if you're in for the story...just for some sudden outbust,it's worth it.

i feel so tired...yawn...zzz came home last nite at about 3am...cos went to eat lasi lemak then went down to changyi village with the rest...quite fun but then,quite sian also...then slept for about 3 hrs++ before going to church then lunch meeting.

after which i went down to the cafe for a cup of vanilla cappuchino which cost me 4 bucks.then chatted till 5:30pm before going home.ate dinner at about 7pm then i fell asleep till 11++ before my moom woke me up.cause i was sleeping in her room...lolz. she woke me up so she could go to bed so now i'm kina awake from the good old nap.

had a great talk with my DG leader which really gave me a direction of where i'm gona head to.thanks cher hao! jia you in sispec.haha---S.uffer I.n S.ilence P.lus E.xtra C.onfinement. SISPEC

speaking of which,now i feel much better about how to deal with my problems and how to handle them while entrusting it to God.yup

i'm feeling kina f**ked up about my attitude today...felt that i should'nt have done what i did,suggesting that chris do floor,chang da do bar and mag do kitchen...tho i felt quite shiok at first...come to think of it,i feel so sucky about it now...that i just want the cafe to run my way...and that i was like damn bloody f**king bossy and all...

maybe cause i'm tired...but then...i still feel i shoudn't have been so direct..scolding chang da and ordering him around.crap...i'm really sorry people...haiz...tho they know i mean no harm...i know that i was pretty harsh towards them...zzz....i'm kina disapointed with myself today...with my attitude...i better change....

i think i am?but am i?i have no idea at all...

i need some confirmation about it...but then,i need the chance...which seem so far away.but i'm afraid to ask...what should i do?maybe i should take the first step when we meet again...but then again...how can i ask someone whom i've only met last week?though i know that many people does it this way,i still feel that i need some time before i can actually settle down to ask.

and i'm quite thankful that the cafe people are somewhat supportive of me,though they always make a joke about it,i can see that they are helping me find details when there's a chance.so i'm really happy to have made friends with the cafe people whom have taught me so much and looked after me all these times:) glad to work there.

was just getting ready to go to the cafe today when my brother called...asked me to help him get some cough drops from north-point which wasn't really on the way then i heard the bus past by...well,he's my brother,so i waited for the next bus to north-point then i went down to the cafe.

not too long after i took 169,it started raining...no,i meant pouring cats and dogs. damn!when i reach the stop for the cafe,i wasn't able to get to the cafe so i called and ask if someone could bring me an umbrella.stayed there from 5pm till about 5:40pm before i left for church,for the BBQ night..wahahaha.stopped to chat with the girl from cake avenue then went to the bus stop.

BBQ was great,helped with starting the fire but never really got to do the cooking,cause there were too many hands there. didn't really eat alot too,though i had fun.the games were great too,i like the secret notes in the moon cake game,we were spilt into 4 groups and had to figure out a certain paragraph from the chang er and hou yi story which was quite interesting.

after BBQ was over,i left for the cafe again,to return the umbrella i borrowed from them. found an amusing sight there,chris (who is trained to do kitchen only) doing floor,and meng xiang doing bar.and to see alvin cooking,making drinks,and taking orders-which is like 3 in 1 combo.the thing is that the cafe wasn't really that busy yet alvin need to help out at floor and bar really shows that the other two needs more practice man.lol.

another tiring day just went by,woke up at 10am in the morning,cause i was too tired so didnt went to church today,but, i had to meet up with jis ying and the rest at 12:30pm for a meeting,so i went doen to j8.i'll say our meeting was great as we had alot of things sorted out and narrowed down to the main details which was very fruitful to me,and the general idea for one was by me.quite happy about it.

then went home to sleep as i'm still super shack out from work last night,found out i had a missed call from the cafe so i called back and they asked me to go down for supper at gelang...yumyum.slept till about 8:30pm from about 6pm then changed and went to the cafe.helped to clear the place and to pack up before we went for supper-daniel,ai ching,alvin,jen son,valerie,me,chris,chang da and meng siang.mag and suban couldn't make it.we ate at three station,one was the beef hor fan and frog porridge,then the soya bean curd,soya bean milk and you tiao palace.lastly,we went for durian...tho jen son,ai ching and val didnt join us.

or rather val join us to play?haha.she was poking daniel with a prick that broke off the durian shell which gave daniel a freak..haha.it was so funny to see the giant jump suddenly while enjoying his durian.haha daniel,val really got u this time. then she tried poking me with it but i felt itchy, and oh ya,she was shooting ice at me while we were at the first station. valerie really likes to play alot, which makes her quite unique actually.ya then chang da drove me back along with meng siang who live at amk. reached back about the same time as last night,about 1:45am.now it's 2:15am and i better go to back soon,working tomorrow moring,though i start work at 12pm.haha :P better run.

just came back from work...at about 1:40am...so i'm quite tired now,shall not blog much ba. work was crazy today,ai ching said morning not so much people but in the night,boom!!!floods came rushing in like nobody's business! not to mention the $$ that flow in too!haha! we hit 1,400 close to 1,500 in cash which was like above our last record of 1,200 in the past.which,really worked my energy off...zzzz...had to run around the cafe like mad non-stop to attend to customers.

really thank daniel who came by to have a look at how things were going,he stayed to help till almost 1130pm befoe leaving,and he even helped me to wash the first batch of dishes. Thank you Daniel!Thanks for all the help! i really ow you one...anyway,the second batch of dishes to wash kept growing and growing,never ending litterally,when i thought i was done,some more dishes will appear in my basin. by the time we actually closed,it was already 12am.and we worked O.T till about 12:40 am before we were done.phew,what a drag,tiring work.

chatted till about 1:30am before we left and took a cab back...then i realised i was too dehydrated..almost felt like vomitting while working due to insufficient time for me to break and to have a cup of water. so i bought some cup noodles and proceed to make my dinner which consisted of xo sauce seafood noodles and a nice cup of tea.now i'm satisfied but i need my beaty sleep...my body is shutting down soon...so i better go to bed.

another great dinner at the mooi's club today! had lotsa food and fun there-steamboat and tapanyaki(can't spell) :D. it was really nice of uncle kk and aunty alison to invite us over to their place for dinner. had great fun and laughter..yay so happy :)

though it was another yao gui's dinner..haha..had so much food there that we have to bring some back home,not to mention the black forest cake to celebrate my mom's birthday which was on teacher's day and sparkling apple and vanilla juice which tastes so shiok after dinner...sadly,we brought over a bottle of wine but couldn't drink it,none of us had a wine opener with us!!urgh...what a blunder...haha

so we brought back the unopened wine and maybe save it for another time i guess...uncle kk had a bottle of opened white wine which he kept for so long till it became vinegar,and it tastes so sour...yucks so he threw that bottle away..lol...then there was pictionary too,quite funny to see them drawing words and stuff-one particular phrase was lion tamer and my mom drew a lion hat would put any artist to shame,literally,cause we ourselves couldn't make out what she was drawing :P a cross between a meat ball,lion,and what seemed like gozzila..haha it was so funny and retarted but it was a really geat and fun time the family have once in awhile.

now i'm super full...so full that i can't go to bed yet,must wait for some food to digest...and i'm back to work tomorrow at the cafe,will be working this monday and friday morning till afternoon and on saterday night. which,will be the last week i'm working with ai ching before she flys off to uk for studies on pastries for 1 year. now the cafe will be down with lesser people,which is quite sad...and i'm still not sure if jenson is leaving for uk too,according to ai ching,will be working there..wow...anyway,now they'll need to train more people to replace them once they're gone i guess.yup,so it will be alvin and mag left along with us,the part-timers.guess they will have to work more then,to fill in for the two empty spaces.

teacher's day,also known as my mom's birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! :)

went for lunch at sizzler with my mom,my sis and my bro today.had a really great lunch and i had the ribeye steak which was so filling :) had so much meat in it and the main course came with either a glass of red wine or sparkling grape juice..what did i choose?the grape juice cos i down red wine at a rate too fast for my body to response,causing me to zonk out.

had lots of fun and laughter during lunch though my dad wasn't around- he had to go to work. my bro and i each ate 3 bowl of ice-cream for dessert which was supper shiok.. :) we were already over whelmed by the main course to continue further as we are still recovering from from sakae which my bro ate again this week...and to think that we have another dinner appointment at the mooi's club for steamboat dinner on sunday...wow,my week of veggies for dinner has gone to waste it seem...now i have to restart the veggies dinner.

speaking of which,i was too full for dinner so i only drank soup and ate some veggies.come to think of it,didnt eat anything since 8pm last night and i slept late,about 2 plus 3 in the morning and this morning,my mom woke us up to join her for swimming in the super cold pool in the super cold morning weather and after that my tummy couldn't take in much food so i ate some of the little bits from breakfast-egg and drank abit of soft drinks. which i soon regretted,had a bad tummy ache and after that was eating like some crazy hungry ghost.the lunch basically made up my breakfast,lunch and dinner for today.

so now i'm gona chiong into the night with ran-online-the newest game i am indulging in these days, must get my next skill by tonight at least :)