the ironic theory of loving thyself yet hating thyself...that's what i'm going through the past few weeks i guess...still pondering over some thoughts about a certain someone...

guess i'm really getting over it sooner than i thought...i'm just glad that i didn't do anything stupid which might have hurt that someone and myself in the process...not physically anyway.hopefully,what is meant to be will fall into place soon...though i'm still holding some hope of it being that someone...oh well...

tomorrow's may day...haha...don't think i'll be playing soccer in the morning,if not i'll have to bring alot of things with me...and i'll be like...out from morning till late at night like 12am or even later?yup..it's grand opening for L1 at bukit timah there...far sia...will be haing a mini party till quite late i guess...so i think i'll stay at home and rest for tomorrow morning.

gona be busy again soon...with school work starting to pile up and gona be working on afew sundays a month...depends on whether alvin needs more people at night or day...yup..and oh...finally got afew more games for my psp.lol...took tekken 3,burn out,tennis and gundam seed from my bro at school.and i still have about 1gb worth of memory left in the memory stick duo.wheeee...can load more songs and maybe some videos.hehe.

today was an interesting day i would say,had breakfast with my brother at the church coffee shop.i ordered my usual,century egg porridge with lean meat.my brother ordered the same but he added one egg to it...haha...then after service,went to find my mom and sis since they wanted to get a new dvd player as ours was kind of screwed up...bought a philips one then went back home.

spend the afternoon relaxing at home and playing winning eleven 9,battlefield 1942,my new psp and watching discovery channel..haha...i really know how to slack the day away don't i?


fast isn't it?2 weeks have gone since i started my third year...things have been going quite well for me i guess...maybe except for thursdays where i have to go through EID practical...stupid module i think...and all the tutors teaching this modules are like so *censored*...really...grumpy old woman and grumpy old man...sheesh...

at least tomorrow will be a more slack day,lecture is relaxing,then tutorial and practical in the afternoon.not too bad,since the tutors are quite nice people.yup,so won't have monday blues..lol,but this tuesday's may day...so there's no lesson...bleh...gona miss a good module with a friendly tutor.oh well...

spidy on tuesday..wheeeee...haha...hmmm....2:40pm show will end about 5pm...then have to rush down to L2 to meet up with the folks there..haha,then we will share cab down to L1.after that if daniel is driving,maybe hitch a ride back home.we'll see how things go ba.

yay...bought my psp yesterday after school at people's park..whoohoo...though it cost me a bomb...$495 for the console,screen protector,armor core umd game,4gb memory stick duo,shock absorbing protective cover.power...really dug a huge hole in my pocket but i'm satisfied with my new psp :)

the shop owner gave me a 80mb free rpg game for trying and it's really quite fun.lol.gona continue with my quest later.haha...gona bring my psp with me everywhere i go i think.and the charger,especially when i go to school.then at least can charge it while having lesson.so that the battery can last.

coming tuesday's may day!haha...labour day la...fine...gona be watching spidy 3 in the afternoon with my cell.then in the evening,gona be going down to L1 for grand opening,hope that we will not stay there till too late since i have lesson at 9 on wednesday morning...school has been more of tiring these 2 weeks instead of being busy with homework and stuff..good thing is that coming friday is e-learning day for IS so no too to go school.yayness..

might be going out with my classmates to bugis,but that is not confirmed yet.so will see how things goes ba.yup...gona play psp now so bye ppl...

ok,so IED practical wasn't all that bad today.though the tutor still "gan" us like siao...but met a new friend,who's doing this module a second time.lol.but anyway,he's good,cause he kind of knows where to get the materials for the works needed to be done.

so we did alot of short cuts today,though in the end,once again...the whole class kana "gan" till our backside on fire...the tutor really enjoys shooting us with stupid questions that screw our presentation upside-down sia...stupid old man...bugger :P

work was ok,though we were fooling around.haha,chris,clarice and me.we three were really talking cock the whole night and slacking away till i have to help chris with his closing...good thing my bar wasn't messy so i have enough time to help clean the kitchen...if not,we'll only close after 12am...

went for supper before coming back by cab,again...then tomorrow may be buying the psp,that is if ivan is free to bring me down to his friend's shop located at !!! CHINA TOWN...omg man...i end lesson at 3pm,rush down will be about 4pm...buy finish the psp-about 4:30pm or 5Pm then rush back down to work...xiong ah...gona burn quite alot on transportation tomorrow and buying the psp...$310 for the console + charger....one game about $50 then the protecter casing and screen protecter...total up about $30 so total will be about $400...ouch...

and that does not include the 4 gb memory stick duo...which cost about $140...will try to see if i can get cheaper prices at sim lim on saturday.ouch...total $500 bucks...and i'm gona be speand about $50 tomorrow for supper last sunday,haven pay yet and tomorrow's daniel's birthday-sharing icecream cake...oh man...i'm freaking broke after all this...sheesh...

today was an interesting day,had lecture in the morning then 2 hour lunch break.went to the SIM food court with my buddies for lunch.and to look at girls.lol,typical guys...haha.then had practical which was freaking slack for today.just sit in class listen to the tutor talk about safety for one hour.then go to the lab and copy down the details of the sub-stations.and that was it.

after which me and fiki went to get drunk on bubble tea before going for the last lesson.haha.last lesson also super slack cause the tutor had some important meeting to attend so he got a friend to take us.and wow,that old man just give us the answers to our tutorial man.haha.so just copy down the answers and it's home sweet home :)

tomorrow's gona be a xiong day i think.especially since i missed the first lesson last thursday,so i'll have to join a group tomorrow i guess,and sure have alot of things to do.since it's like 4 hours of tutorial then 3 hours of practial.the worse is i'm like freaking far behind time...so wish me luck man...then there's work tomorrow night,hopefully i can survive the day.

gona be out from 7am till about 12am...so it's like 17 long hours outside?omg...it's gona burn badly...my body battery i mean...haven't been getting enough rest for the past few days already...and my body is fighting hard to maintain order from within,if not...i think i'll just shut down for good...and by that,i mean byebye world and welcome heaven.

oh well...better get going soon.feeling tired...oh ya...i forgot...my mind's 90% made up on buying the psp...so i guess it's one last day for me to think about it before i ask ivan to bring me to his friend's shop at china town..power,think i'm gona get it most likey ba.since i really do want to get one.for using internet too in school if i don't bring my laptop.and for playing winning eleven whoohoo.ya.

psp...to buy or not to buy?that is the question to be answered...
newest version psp with charger,$310.
usb data cable,i have.
hard plastic cover and screen protector,estimated $25.
umd disc,estimated $20++ to $50++.
4gb memory stick duo,estimated $140.
15gb worth of games,my buddies have.
total estimated cost,$310+$25+$50+$140=$525

ouch...that's gona burn a big hole in my savings...better go check up the prices before i make my decision on whether to buy or not to buy.though i've made up 80% of my mind to buy it.hmmm...

when will i be free to go down to sim lim square to check out the prices?no idea...but if possible,i'd want to get the psp this friday if i am going to buy it.so i better check out the prices soon...but $500...oh my goodness man...that's hell lot of money to consider,especially since i'm just working part time.and my savings have been depleting to and fro.this investment's gona be a big blow to my finance.

wa sucks man...if i'm gona buy it,i will have to spend less on other things man...and try my best to save more to cover up the big hole i'm gona burn.good thing my pay for the month is coming in soon,at least it'll cover up about $300 so i'll burn about $250 in total.which will not be that much i guess,but will have to keep a watch out on what i spend on for the next coming month.yup.

there we go...i still have no idea why people like to give their 2 cent's worth when things that happened doesn't even concern them...wtf?these people act like they're so holy or something...go f*** yourself la seriously..."cheer up though" pui chao nua...pissing me off even more man...

just shut your 2 cent's worth and maybe i would have cooled down about what happen already...but no...you f**kers just have to add salt,add vineger when you don't even know what's going on...si bei k-po...like some chao ah ma like that...always want to get involved in things that doesn't concern them...

i will really appriciate if you just stop adding your 2 cent's worth in my tag.thats all i ask for so:"DUDE!STFU!"and i know i have made it real clear.so just leave me alone and let me be.thanks

F*** man...freaking a$$ kgniam knee me straight in my right knee at the tenon...now my knee is swollen and f*** i cant put any pressure to it...freaking painfull...got so pissed of with that a$$ noob$h!t last night i almost sweared at him...controlled myself though...

last week broke my bottle and say:"i ws running for the ball",this week injured me at my knee and say the same thing...and you know what?not a single word of appology...f*** you bastard!i'm not going to be "ke qi" to him anymore from now on...its not worth it to waste time on this rubbish who is a total waste of natural resources.

seriously,do something wrong but keep giving excuses and excuses and excuses...wtf is wrong with you huh?never even say sorry or ask if the person you injured is ok or not...f**king attitude...the next time i play soccer with you again...watch out cause i'm gona ram the nooba$$ $h!t out of you..and you deserves it.

school was...lets see...freaking interesting today :) haha...first module in the morning was world issues-and the lecturer was like"POWER!"...and i mean it man...super funny and shitty guy i would say.makes fun and every single one in the class,since we're all from different school,he did his best to make everyone comfortable.yup...

though he uses words like "sucks","shits","f**k"ya...and he is one hell of a freakiing open guy...talks about "sticks and ball","bunnies" and all the shits...ya...and we were laughing like siao through out his class.then he let us off for an early lunch...

left the class at about 11:15am,went for lunch till about 12pm then we went to e-square to slack...till 1pm,finally...went for my last lesson of the day.went to co-op to buy some drinks then head for class alone.cos my friends were in different classes.haha...then shit lor...saw a notice stuck to my class dorr-and it read,your tutor is on mc so there's no lesson...F.....

oh well,head down to the cafe to slack.then saw 2 new part-timers today,morning one was more of a butch?i don't know.but she's ku and xiao ming's friend so oh well...then in the evening,after trimming my hair,went with my family for dinner at the cafe.saw another new part-timer.

this new girl is quite cute i guess...lol,and she was quite shocked when i carried our dishes to the kitchen...she has this look like-er...how come the customers can do this one?then jen introduced me to her officially,as a part-timer too and her small eyes just poped out i guess..haha...and oh,she's from ngee ann too,and my age i think.

4th day of school...and i'm down with diarrhea...bleh...got an mc for the day but stil have to go for work at night...and i miss my freaking bus at 11:10pm...waited till 11:30pm?then i managed to get a bus back to yishun...reached home at 12 midnight...just finished bathing...super tired now...partly the medication taking effect and me being really tired...still have to wake up at 7am later...zzz...

having my IS in the morning at 10am,then doing some mindset module at 1pm...i hope it's not as bad as the last one i did...oh well...we'll see about it later...gona cut my hair in the afternoon after class...gona thin the bushy hair but keep the length...yup...thats all for now..

school just started...and its not that bad i guess...though i'm in a class where i only know afew of my classmates...and every wednesday and thursday,i'll be alone...cause my good buddies failed the same module last sem so they will not be taking one module that i'm taking...bleh...

gona be a freaking loner again...and i realised why i didn't get to do design project this sem...cause its due to the module selection thingy i did last sem...crap man...i anyhow pick then kana this special module where out of all year three EE students,only 18 are doing...and they only have the module this sem...so i have no choice...

bleh...hopefully tomorrow wont be a bad day...and yay!gona go collect my hp tomorrow after school...finally....i cant wait,sent it for repair on saturday morning and the earliest date for collection is tomorrow afternoon after 1pm,so gona go after school...but better than not getting my hp back...haha

school is starting tomorrow...third and final year in ngee ann poly...bleh...i don wana study anymore...but i have to...to graduate and get my degree before going to ns...sian ah.............i just want to start working free lancing jobs...jobs that are flexible and what i enjoy doing...but i guess its not possible...

sigh...really not looking forward to school tomorrow...good thing my lesson starts at 10am,so i can slepp abit more...but gona wake up earlier so that i'll be able to get used to waking up early again...been sleeping at weird timing like 3am for the past 2 months and waking up ay 9am...so i better get my body to retrive the waking memory it lost...lol...

watching new police stoy now...so chao...

totally not in the mood now...sucky feeling...

my poor 1.5 litre acrylic plastic bottle...i'll always remember you in my heart..haha...shit...

its my fault too for carrying it while playing soccer...then kenneth ah...bang straight into me...and there goes the bottle...a full 10 pointer dive straight into the concrete ground....and there goes the splash!water splashes everywhere,signaling the end of my bottle's super short life...off came a part of it and there goes the crowd-staring at the poor remains while the bottle's precious liquids came gushing out of the huge hoe by its bottom...poor poor bottle...

picked up the remains and send it to it's final resting place,the dustbin by the side...down it went,with a "thud",it found the only comfort it could ever find,in a cold dirty,old and crumbled metal bin...i'll always remember the great times we had together,me drinking out of you filling you up till the brim...and the times we spent together,everywhere i went in the house,you'll be there for me.i'll never forget you...till i found another bottle to replace you...haha!!

crappy and shitty story...but touching yeah?lol...

work was fun today :) talked alot of cock during work with my buddies too,haha...then we cooked our own lunch (: power.chris cooked fried rice for CS then still got some left overs so he ate them for lunch.ku cooked mussel linguine oglio style,and i cooked sliced chicken with bacon in tomato sauce and covered my plain rice with them...slurpz...

haha,had a great lunch,then crap around while cutting garlic.now my hand still got the garlic smell..eww..bleh...its my job and i love it!hahaha...then again ah...when alvin came in,the three of them-chris,ku and alvin gang up on me sia....die die also dont wana let me go back home..so bo bian stay around then help chris clean the mussels.

then alvin treat us to drinks from 7-eleven,oh well...left about 5:30pm and came straight back home...had dinner with my mom and sis then after that,my bro ask me go northpoint walk...bleh...went with him anyway,since my holidays are ending soon,then came back arounf 9:30pm...relaxed while watching magicians of love till 12am.wahaha

played winning eleven 9 after that then now i'm blogging.practically my so called last day of holiday is over.wow...2 months of holidays passed so quickly...and its time for school again.bleh...hopefully,tomorrow i can go down to wrisma atria to get my hp repaired and collect it back on sunday beofre i go back to school.

yup,thats about it...

damn the constant heavy rain today...was supposed to go downtown wrisma atria to send my sony ericsson hp for repair when it started raining at like 12 plus...super heavy rain for almost an hour...then the rain lighten down to a drizzle.after which about 10 to 15 minutes later,it started pouring cats and dogs again...the cycle repeated itself for a fewtimes till it was like 5 6 pm...

so in the end,i decided to stay at home and finish up my "xiao yu er yu hua wu que" vcd.yup,finally finished watching the whole series.a total of 40 episodes.spent this week watching the last 20 episodes.though i've watched the later half of the whole series on tv,i didn't get to watch the last episode...bleh...so i bought the whole set about 2 week ago.yup.

anyway,tomorrow gona be working in the morning,then after that gona come back home i guess,since it's the last friday i have before i start school...bleh...don't feel like going back...some more i like only know 1 to 2 person in my new class...wth man...swap me to some funny class with people i don't even know...i think most of my previous classmates are either doing their attachments or doing their design project...maybe it's due to my low credit for the previous sem that they made me do my last sem of studying before doing my project...

bleh...and my class only have like about 15 to 18 people,which is freakingly small i guess...kina suck tho...but its the last sem of studying,so i guess i just have to go through with another 4 months and i'll be a free bird again...lol...another 2 months of holidays beofore i start my design project.yup-ok,i better stop talking about school...it's making me sick O.o

anyway,gona enjoy my last few days of freedom-really gona play hard like never before,wahaha...but still quite slack,since i have not much programs at hand..lol...bleh...but nvm...just enjoy the last few days will do :)

bubble tea with extra pearl...power :) bought 3 honey red tea with pearl-extra pearl to work.then chew the pearls like siao cause chris don't allow jen to eat her pearls.so we two split the loots.haha

have fun today,super slack and exchanging dumb conversations the whole day.most funny but kina disgusting convo was about annabel chong during lunch...omg..but super dumb la...the slang that chris and jen used for those forbidden words...lol

stayed back till 5 plus cause jen need to go back to L1 to prepare some of the dishes there,then had a brother chat with chris about relationships.yup,then also,he taught me how to make home made mayonnaise using egg yokes and vegetable oil-cool...

and the two of us were killing houseflies like no body's business..haha-there were like 4 to 5 houseflies which flew in from the back door,then we were holding on to the wet towels used for wiping tables and taking aim when the houseflies landed...haha.in the end,i kill 3 houseflies while chris kill 2.lol.

tomorrow gona start work at 6pm,boss need to leave earlier at 6:30pm so he asked me to help him cover.oh well.gona be working with chris and jen again tomorrow night and we will be like-today eat what huh?haha.always the same old usual crap that we do...yup

then thursday i have to go down to wrisma atria...since thats the only place i know compared to simei road or toh guan road..gona send my sony hp for repair before i start school...the joystick is really in a bad shape man...pressing up 10 times and only once or twice will it work...i hate sony hp joystick...but overall,the hp is still in good condition...

holidays are gona be over soon and i still haven check whose in my class yet...lol.gona do so later if possible...haha.k,better get going

bleh day...no work,no study,no play,no nothing...total bleh day...

hopefully tomorrow will be a better day...working in the afternoon,early afternoon.hopefully,they will let me go off after my shift...

2 full days wasted away rotting at home...but i feel better now,after having 2 full days to rest my burnt out mental mind...bleh...haha...its true,i'm so burnt out...bleh

anyway,today is easter sunday!haha...but i didn't go for service,had a good proper night's rest instead.wahaha...if not i don't think i will last till tonight..,having fish head wok? for dinner tonight yayness!lol "he tao luo"-thats what they call it.gona have a good dinner tonight with my family and uncle kk and auntie alison,yup

wheeeee...tomorrow's gona be abother day of rest and relax for me...but i think i will go for a walk somewhere ba...

i'm crazy,haha-and i admit i am...

bought a $90 cross bone vanguard gundam-size 1/100 yesterday morning after good friday service,then i spent the next 5 1/2 hours from 12pm till 5:30pm burning up all my concentration just to build the model kit...

after that,went for work and i couldn't concentrate for more than 20 minutes...since i was already quited burnt out...and due to jen and chris being catholics, we ate veggies for dinner...after closing,we ate durian which jen bought then went for some beer...eww...

durian and beer,not a good combination...bleh...after that,i was already quite seh then went back home.took my bath but couldn't go to sleep yet since my hair was wet-so i continued with my model kit...only managed to complete the robot itself and nothing else during the 5 1/2 hours.

did from 2:30am till about 5am and finally,i completed the full-clothed gundam mobile suit...yayness!!!but wait...theres still more...the weapons...bleh....couldn't concentrate anymore so i went to bed..wokpe up at 12:30pm then first thing i did was to fixed up the weapons...till now,i still have like a few more components to go but heck,my concentration is all burnt up!

not gona cotinue with it till maybe tomorrow or the coming week liao...and i'm freaking tired now...my eyes are gona pop out from their sockets soon...bleh...am i crazy?

YES I AM!!

whoohooo!!angela's on tv!!!!wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i'm HIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!hahahahahahaha....kk

going crazy,lol...work today was good,2 of us,me and alvin tag-team till about 1pm before jen came back from her medical appointment.yup,then there was this hot mama who came in to dine...whoohooo...k,not a mama...some pretty lady actually..haha-my guess is she's in her late 20s or early 30s.

but most likey middle 20s.hehe...and she was really very pretty...lol,and i attended to her...haha.she ordered one set lunch to go with her chicken melt-set lunch comes with a soup of the day and two rounds of drinks.yup and she asked if there was mushroom soup.sad case our last three mushroom soups were taken by another three customers who ordered right before her...

then when alvin was cooking the soup,realised there was enough to squeeze one more bowl for that pretty customer..haha,and boy was she so happy when i informed her and served her that one last bowl of mushroom soup that she so wanted.lol.and she was really so so so pretty :)

that was one really pretty eye candy i've seen in a super long while...bet you chris sure will want to befriend her if he was around.haha,since he like older and more matured girls.lol.whheeeeeeeeeeeeee

watching zhang shao han on tv now!!haha.

ok...spent the whole day at home watching the invincible duo,haha,watched 7 disc in one day.took about 8 hours of continuous watching :D and i'm satisfied yay!lol gona continue watching tomorrow after i'm back from work,though i doubt i'll be able to go early...bleh

gona finish the first 20 episodes by tomorrow then after that gona spend the coming last week of holidays to finish the show.then i can go back to school in peace.yup,went out in the evening with my bro to walk again,then bought dinner-fried rice again!-back home to eat while watching my show :)

did the laundry and kept in the dried clothings.seem like i'm always helping out with the household chores when my maid is'nt around...bleh...hope that tomorrow at work will be fun and all.now i just wana do my job well and stuff,so that when i cannot work anymore,i'll have no regrets since when school starts,i'll have like only friday night and saturday morning to work...

so practially my whole week will be eaten up,monday to friday-school,almost like working timing,9 to 5 almost everyday then friday night and saturday morning work...so there goes almost all my week,then saturday evening still got cell group and sunday service.so i'm like left with sunday evening to spend time for myself...bleh

cooked pasta for my family tonight.had sausages,mushrooms,ham and bacon.yumyum...but super full now...haha,cooking is fun :) allows me to explore different techniques and to improve on the taste and skill of my cooking.yayness!but after cooking and eating,comes the most undesirable part-washing and cleaning up of the kitchen,stove and dishes...

i cleaned up the stove,my bro did the dishes and my sis mopped the kitchen.lol,3 siblings tag-team.after that,went to bathe...finally,managed to get my long awaited bath.haha,imagine after spending a day at work dealing with pastas,dishes and overall cleaning up,i still have to deal with the same old things.haha,just that the environment at home.yup

then after everything is finally done,wheeee!!!had blueberry cheese cake which i bought back from the cafe.superb cheese cak i tell you,though the blueberry is located as the topping,and the rest is pure cheese cake,its just so nice and delicious...mmmmm...slurp..haha,wished i had bought more slices though,only bought two slices since there's not many at the cafe anyway.

now just waiting for my tummy to diguest the pasta and cheese cake...wahahaha...so taking a break for the night and relax.. :) maybe gona drop by the cafe tomorrow afternoon,relax and maybe eat more cheese cake.haha :P

feeling so much better today :)gastric is finally clearing..yay!haha...

so i went to work...had veggie soup with penne and 4 mussles for dinner.

had a total of 4 meals today,over about 13 hours.yup,cooked plain porridge for breakfast at about 10:30am in the morning,then got hungry at about 2-plus so cooked noodles.haha

then while at work,alvin bought roasted duck,had a few small pieces cause i still wasn't feeling well.then at about almost 9pm,then we had our dinner.after which we prepare for closing and stuff.

left at about 11:20pm cause there was some accounts problems,then i had to run for my bus...bleh...reached home slightly before 12am then got hungry again...so took my bath then cooked noodles again.now i'm feeling quite full.lol.having gastric really make one feel hungry almost all the time.

at the same time,it also make one feels super full due to the stomach juices forcing their way up your throat...and the feeling really sucks...keep burping too,nasty....been two days of grastic...hope that tomorrow will be a better day...working in the morning tho...bleh

i really have to blog this...i'm freaking pissed over the part timers at liquids...

everytime they cannot work a certain shift,they always call me to take over them...an i'll glady do it for them,since i treat them as friends...but,now that i'm sick...with gastric...none of them bother to help me out...what the fcuk man!

especially those 3 fcuked up asses...can go for barbecue at night but die die also cannot help me cover...shit them la...some colleagues they turn out to be...total fcuksh!ts.

now i have no choice but to report for work..it's really getting onto my nerves,everytime i tell myself nevermind,since they're my colleagues but again,they're really disappointed me too many a time...so nevermind,i'll go for work tonight as usual but bear this in mind,i'm not going to fcuking care about any shit reasons they're gona give me to take over their shift anymore.

I HAVE ENOUGH OF THIS SH!TS