kay...i didnt go Angela's mini 'live' concert at tampines mall todae...i figured tat in order keep my good impression of her.i decided not to go for e concert todae in case i hear her singing off key again.but ppl tell me tat no singer is ever perfect.and i do agree...having sang off key before in front of about 50 to 70 ppl.tho i will still love Angela and admire her for who she is:)anyway,juz here todae to post some of Angela's photo.

ain't Angela pretty and cute?ah...i juz love her as an artist and for who she is.ZHANG SHAO HAN NI YONG YUAN SHI WO DE ZUI AI!

WHEEE....quite happy todae.went to J8 to see Angela Chang.or rather i went to her autograph session...tho i didn't get her autograph....sad....come to think of it...maybe i should have went to e queue to get her autograph.but it doesn't really matter to me.cos i juz wanted to have a look of her...

Angela is juz so pretty i tell u.tho she put on quite alot of make up,she's like a goddess...gald i went to take a look todae.she'll be at tampines mall tml at 5pm for a so called 'live' concert.so maybe i'll head down again tml.e worse thing abt todae was i FORGOT MY CAMERA!!!urg.....

how dumb was i...really...been waiting for this dae to arrive where Angela visits singapore and i forgot to bring e camera...omg...tml i'll definately bring e camera if i were to go...think i'll go down...cos its her last dae in singapore before returning to taiwan i think.anyway,i'm juz happy tat at last i had someone who was there wif me.and i thank him for e talk we had...cos it really relieved my stresses....

back to Angela.she sang pandora and zhen de during her autograph session...but sadly...she was kina off key...but nevertheless....WO HUI YONG YUAN ZHI CHI NI DE!ZHANG SHAO HAN WO AI NI!! (LOL) if only she can hear me...haha...Angela rocks forever!!

haiz...it seem tat in my circle of friends...i'm e only one who likes angela zhang...been spending almost e whole week searching for ppl to go with me to j8 this saturday to her autograph session...but it seem no one can be bothered about her...somehow i don really get it...am i juz so totally different from e rest?and to think tat asking for juz one request from a friend can lead to some freaking shit confrontation...

wat e heck?i ask if can go with me den suddenly confrontation shoots straight back at me...i mean...if u cant make it...so be it...y have to inturn shoot a ****ing confrontation about certain topics which i totally hates to discuss at me?have i offended u in some way?den some other friends were like...hey wana go play pool?den i told them ok can...saturday i don mind.den can go j8 at e same time...den they turned their back at me...

and they can still call themselves my friend...always asking me to follow them go do this do that...always taking advantages of me...seriously...wats their freaking problem?!

rite now...i'm wondering...are those who call themselves my friends act as if they're my friends or are they taking advantages of me?it seem tat maybe i shouldn't even bother wif them anymore...its like e word 'friend' seem so shallow....without much meaning in it anymore...

ppl will juz call themselves ur friend cos they need u to do something for them...when they dont need u,they simply turn their asses at u...basically,tats wat i think they are doing to me rite now...and to think tat ppl can 'act' tat they care...but deep inside...i'm seriously thinking...do they really care or give a shit about me?

e worse is tat some of them are christians...which now really made me wonder about my faith...am currently losing it at a fast rate...is it really worth it?i ask myself...and e confrontation shit really pissed me off abt my faith...wat is it about me not reading the book (not bible) tat ppl come and tell me tat i should be doing something they themselves don't really do?now i really want to juz heck care tat freaking book...if u ask me...i don find any point in reading it...from my point of view...its juz a book...and i hate reading...end of story....any more about it and i'll really **** u off...

back to e start...WITH OR WITHOUT any friends...i'm going to j8 tml to see angela zhang...to hell wif those who call themselve my friend but cant even bother to do me a favor...they can juz **** themselves off for all i care...

whew...wat a tiring weekend for me...all started from friday...

friday-went to work in e morning,till 4pm den went back home.went out at about 6pm again to play badminton with my brother and jessica.but mostly,juz me and my brother...cos jessica was kind of like slacking away at a corner...lol...den my bro was like giving smacks n drop-shots e whole nite...so i was picking ball for quite awhile...den i tried smaking too...ya,smakc my wrist instead...usual injury...always forget my wrist guard...alamak...den super seh after tat.went for dinner with them den went home to rest.

den about 11pm,afer washing up,was preparing to g osleep liao when my bro returned...told me Peng Keong korkor coming to play Dota at about 12am.so we wait lor...den spent about 40min trying to set up lan for him...finally,1am..wa seh...played dota till almost 5am b4 i went to bed...

saterday-woke up at 9am to work...den after work,made my way down to TG CC at amk area for badminton again...this time,with my cell...had alot of fun.and i didn't forget my wrist guard this time...quite a good work out for me..considering i hadn't work out for like 3 to 4 weeks?ya...play from 5pm till about 815pm...seh...quite shack but i was still running high wif sugar in my body...went for dinner wif the rest tho i dint eat...den took a cab wif alpha down to church coffee shop there e badminton court to play soccer wif e boys cell.den left for home abt 940pm...after tat...totally zonked out...

today went to church for service...den during announcement,pastor sam announced e BB week...den e rest was like BB...and stuff...den i kana sabo liao...pastor sam looked at me and said this:"BB, you are weak..."sorreh...wat a sabo...wa...i kana jack like siao lor...den after service i left for home...cos quite tired...to make e matter worse... my zen neeon came in contact wif e magnet in my bag...and guess wat happen?hard disk crush....tml have to go down to creative support centre to repair e bloody mp3...crap...

wat a drag e dae has been for me since...but at least i got my 'beauty' sleep....lol...took a good nap from like 4 pm i think...till about 815pm...quite a good rest foe me...especially since i've been using up alot of energy e past 2 3 daes straight...at least i could rest on a sundae...which is considered quite a blessing....anyway...gtg already...its almost 10pm liao...

5612 camp 2006:wat a great camp it had been...it started from sunday afternoon at about 3pm and ended today at about 1230pm.tho i had left before e camp even woke up todae...was sleeping in the chapel until i realised tat e carpet was reacting to my skin...causing rashes to appear...on top of that,i had many mosquito bites all over...which woke me up at about 530 in e morning...

anyway,yesterdae was e so called games dae as we had a fun dae at pasir ris park playing games and enjoying ourself...after lunch,we started our station games...3 stations in total,e banana captions ball,battleship and river crossing.

Banana Captions Ball:basic Captions Ball rule,standard play and stuff but witout a ball...instead,we used real riped bananas as e ball to be thrown around...as usual,many bananas were worn out and some even found their new homes on e nice clothes that e campers had on...hehe...e only problem was,it was hard to determind any winning team...and thus many teams were stuck there...which cause a lack in the other stations.

BattleShip:again,standard battleship board game...tho we use e campers and cardboard boxes as e ships.and since in e board game version,u cant see ur competitor's battleship,e bomber from each team was blind-folded and directed by ther team memebers to throw their grenade at e oposing team's battleship.fun game to play,and to see e laugher from e little kiddie's faces.

River Crossing:this station was e only stand alone station where no competition was ever needed.first objective was to find joshua,who was hiding inside e maze garden.very funny to see e teams crouching around looking for e 'prey'.reminds me of e documentry i watched about a pack of 25 lions hunting down elephants in africa.interesting.den,they had to cross e 'river'.1 sheet of newspaper is all they had to get everyone across point A and point B without anyone's body touching e ground...brings e creativity out of every team.

the only problem we faced was time constrain and e distance between e stations...in e end,our last game 'tanks' had to be played in church as e bus arrived at about 430pm to send us back.nevermind,we had lots of fun getting wet in e church carpark...haha...imagine kids wearing egg cartons and styerfoam boxes as armors to protect their newpaper from getting wet...haha..after all the fun we had,my brother and i left for home to wash up and had our dinner.

den we headed back down to church as cher hao needed our help for e night games...wow...wat fun...we had quite a few stations around...and we were playing in total darkness in church...e best part was every team had blind folds on...except e leaders and helpers who need to guide the way.

in e chapel,was a chair maze for e teams to get their way through.pretty tough but fun.rite outside e chapel was e lipstick station where e team had to find a lipstick.den they had to draw patterns on each other's arm.haha...den there was my station where e leader n helper will leave e team at level 2,and we,e little devils will distract e team members n try to break them away fron the group.den e leader will gather them back n scold them...lol...den they will proceed to e pasta station where they need to dig tru cooked pastas to get out bible verses.

there were 2 more stations but i cant really remember the details...sorry...lol...anyway...had lots of fun wif e little likkies tho some of them-in fact quite alot of them were quite xiang i would sae...but heck,they're small kids..wat do u except?really glad to be able to bring fun and laugher to e kids.really thoughttat all of us did a really good job in puting e games together.not to forget that God was there all along wif us to ensure our safety ya?

anyway,gona sign off...gona watch my tv liao...missed it yesterdae nite...n todae's e last episode...so i better chao...

terrible...tats e word to describe my dae...well not really...but making balloons for kiddies really m a pain in my ass...e worse is when they r so demanding...totally spoilt kids...and to think that i thought e balloons were only for kids...by rite...but...by left...e adults seemed to love e balloons more...

some even come forward to ask for special designs which only ben noes how to make...den after awhile...he got somewat pissed...anyone will be pissed...cos they juz kept asking for designs tat were not in our planning...a poodle,toy sword,crown,flower and teddy bear wif love...boy...when we had a table full of balloons,no one comes to take...when we had nothing...everyone came for balloons...

seriously...wats wrong wif them?i mean...i don mind making for u guys...but its quite rediculous when u become demanding about e colors of e balloons and e specific designs...and hello...u are an adult...omg...y m i even making one for u?nevermind...den some kids come take one den go off...den come back take another one den go off...den again...n again...till e elder sister came back wif like 3 to 4 balloons n return to us...

wat e heck?no wonder we were running low on balloons...n some parents were quite xiang too...give ther kids one nice crown...den they still go like this:u want another one?a sword?or maybe a flower?please la...come on...free already u still wana take advantage of it...alamak...

its really irritating...e good thing was tat ben could keep up wif e pace...he's e master in charge of us...n he taught me a few tricks to balloons as well...like some special twisting where even if e ballons were to bust,e main part will hold on due to e twisting...kina cool tho...good thing we ended at 4...if not...sure have alot of adults coming back for more complicated designs...

den after everything was over,went back home since it was gona and did rained super heavily...den fell asleep while smsing my lil sis...and wow...i was like crushing my rite arm while sleeping...den when i woke up...wa...my rite arm was super painful n weak...cant even move properly...had to pinch my muscles to wake them up due to lack of blood flow in them...ouch...

now its much better...if not i wont be able to type at all...tho i can still feel e suan-ness of my aching arm...anyway...gona sleep liao...haden been sleeping well e past few daes...which caused me to fall sick wif a very bad running nose yesterdae while working...so i'm gona sign off liao...bye ppl...

Punggol Park:
e place i went to yesterdae, 9th march 2006...began my journey from 330pm wif my bro from home...took a walk down to e bus stop near katib from our home and proceed to board 965 to sengkang.bought bouble tea at $1.30 each den went to top-up ez-link at one of e LRT station.

after which we proceed to walk to ponggol park...had wanted to take a bus down but we had our bouble tea wif us...no choice but to take bus 11...our legs tat is...after about 15 to 20 min...finally...Ponggol Park was in sight...wow...looks pretty nice and quiet...till we reach it...

wow...there was practically nothing to do there...unless u're one without childhood...den u'll be enjoying e playground...we took a walk around e park in search for any open areas suitable for playing station games...after another 15 min...we were back at e playground...only figured out e work out area,playground,and maybe an open file near e pong...(e park is like a running track wif a pond in e middle instead of a field)

den my brother proceeded to take photos of e possible areas for e games...we were walking to part 2 of e park when my brother recieved a sms...it went something like this-zul,can play water games..but don go into e sea...-arrow shot tru both our heads-er...ponggol park where got sea...immediately,my brother sms back to give him a call...

so we continued walking...den -ringring-pick up hp-ya...hey...confirm wif u ah...its ponggol park rite?there's no sea le...only got pond...den -BaNgBaNgBaNg-triple shot into our poor heads(still got arrow stuck there):oh sorry...e one wif e fisherman village tat one le...drum roll please...its pasir ris park...and not where we were at...ponggol park...alamak...-smack my head till e arrow n bullets drop off-

communication breakdown...somehow e big head mixed up pasir ris park wif ponggol park...den we(me n my brother) were sent on an empty hunt...mission failed...nevermind...den we went out of e park and crossed e road...den we saw e egg man...den...hmmm...we needed some egg cartons for e games so we went up to him and ask for some...den he gave us e whole stack he had...yay..

after tat we made our way to hougang mall...on e way...we bought soya bean milk...tho i have no idea y e plastic bag they use are so sticky...like they r made of suage syrup or honey...omg...den our hands became damn sticky....like on an advanture den no time to bathe tat kind...e worse was yet to come...

we were crossing e small road(xiao lu)beside a monsoon drain where there were some ppl cleaning e underneath of e road which acted as a small bridge...den it happened...we were almost across when whoosh!!!one big paddle of water went up like a roaring dragon n landed on us...like an explosion...portable water was flying everywhere and e two advaturers were ambushed by it...

beaten n wet...we retreated into a void deck to rest...and clean up too...cleared e honey plastic bag,washed our poor arms tat were ambushed and we pick up our back to move on...finally...hougang mall...safe and sound...we retreated into popular to enjoy e free cooling air..hehe...wat an advanture we had...tho i'd rather not experience it again...

den it was home sweet home for me...tho e journey was slow n abit painful...cos e bus was super pack and i had to carry e egg cartons back for my brother...but at least i got a seat beside a quite cute and pretty school girl..lol...hehe...wasted didnt ask for her number...haha....

reached home alsmot 8pm...den slack till its time to sleep...anyway...went to work todae...was hell for me...cos i had a bad cold...den kept messing up things...thank God alvin(my boss) was nice and stuff...didnt scold me or something...and thank Suban for switching bar wif me...cos i was initually doing floor where i need to handle e customers...den suban took over n all i had to do was to make drinks if the customers order...many thanks to e both of them for being understanding.

wat e heck...wat m i doing besides sleeping at 330am in e morning?
ans:watching soccer la...den wat u expect?

lol...gona watch asenal vs real medrid...sian...yesterdae basa vs chelsea 1 all...crap lor...referee kayu...

anyway...match starting soon...byebye...

i have nothing better to do...except watch tv and play computer games...but i'm getting sian of it...besides working...theres not much to fill my time...and i don really wana work so many daes in a week...prefer to work like 3 day shift...& maybe 1 nite shift...but i'll want e rest of e week off for myself...

however,i have no idea wat to do during these free daes...i'll juz either bum off or do some meaningless crap...which i actually don really wana do...but i'll juz resort to tat to pass time...which is really a xiang and rubbish thing to do...maybe i should spend my time learning some new skills...like learn to play tennis,or maybe go swimming every free dae...

one is to burn off some excess weight...lol...and two is to use up my time meaningfully...hmmm...seem like a good idea...i definately need to burn off e excess weight soon...target for end of this year is to hit 75kg?or less if possible...first i will need to control my eating habit...always looking for food...in fact i'm thinking of food rite now...tho i'm quite full...sigh...i'm really a goner...

anyway...hope i'll be able to spend my time meaningfully...juz 1 week of holidae is enough to kill me...doing almost nothing e whole dae for a week...better put on my armor and fight e nua-ness in me...

ok...so i'm back one dae later n not as i'd said...last nite...went to work last min....cos ai ching too tired to work till closing...so i have to work lor...get to earn extra also good la...anyway...been bumming e whole dae...

woke up at like 1pm...damn tired ah...den play dynesty warriors 4 wif my bro den play dota...den again dynesty warriors 4...damn fun...use zhang fei running around poking ppl wif my spear...lol...den was listening to pandora album also e whole time...i'm really going nut over angela's new album these few daes...esp track number 7:bao hu se...super catchy n rappy song...

and i like e part where she do e rap...cos e way she pronouce e word noob is juz so kawaii...haha...and she look so matured in e mv...ANGELA ROCKS!!!really like her alot...wahaha...how i wish i can take a photo wif her...if i get to see her in singapore tat is...it'll be a miracle i tell u...one of my biggest wish-to get her autograph and to take a one to one photo wif her...
so pretty rite? :)

hmmm....4 daes since i last step into blogspot...wasn't in e mood to write...reason being thursdae went to work den dead seh after tat...tho i still play games after work...but don wana do typing...

den fridae i was like doing some crappy stuff e whole dae...so even worse...play game till i siao also...den yesterdae went to work again...den went to play soccer...so was out almost e whole dae...oh well...had some fun tho...

todae is quite slack for me...woke up late for breakfast...so in the end juz went for service...den went to cut my hair...leave e back didnt cut so it looks abit funny...like i'm some indian ah beng like tat...lol...den my mom making noise...not her hair also make noise...alamak...all mothers are e same la...

anyway...now slacking...nothing better to do...maybe later go practice my balloon making...cos coming sat need to go down help my mom's company event to make balloon for kiddies...sian...make me cannot work on sat...cos i always work on sat one...boo...

watever la...now good mood cos i listening to angela's new album...been listening to it for about 2 daes straight...e meaning of e songs are flowing in now...due to e fact tat i still haven gotten over her i think...but it doesn't really matter anymore...cos i'm care free now...and i can concentrate on other things liao...

maybe tonite i'll continue this post..

i've realised...as e daes went by me...i've somehow became numb to e fact tat i'm alone...tat i'm actually learning to adept to e fact...which i realised i'd wouldn't survived if e instinct inside me hadn't took over...i'd proberbly be in so much pain and suffering i'd sae...

somehow, its like someone is injecting painkiller into my heart everydae...so tat i'll feel numb carry on wif life...maybe tats wat God had intended for me...i dono...it seem tat that's e case...maybe i'll be able to get over e issue soon enough and find another meaning to life itself...till now...i've been holding on to sinking ship...and its dragging me deeper n deeper into e sea...

maybe soon enough,i'll noe how to release my grip on e sinking ship and who noes,i may float up e surface again...and while i'm at it...i may be able to find another ship to hold on to...a ship tat will never sink...already,my tight grip has been loosen...

tho i still want to hold on to tat ship...hoping for a miracle tat will enable e sinking ship to foat up...it seemed impossible tho...anyway...i'm feeling alot better compared e last time...so i juz hope everything tat happened is for e best of life...my life tat is to sae...