Haiz...really juz want to pen down some current thougts..but hey,my hand writing suxz...oh well...first post of a tiny blog which i didnt really wanted to start...anyway,its for my writin so who cares?
First thing first...todae had been a real fruitful dae for me...finally got to see Nick,my long lost friend who 'disappeared' for like 2 yrs?man tats super long...had a really good catching up chat wif him...tho i had to leave for home quite early...haiz.nvm tat.

wat really bothers me now is the fact that i'm really confused abt my feelings for diff ppls...e fact tat 1 asked me if i like her really hit me rite in my face and got my rusted gears to start workin in my brain again...had a long thought abt it and realised i'm not thinkin properly abt BGR...Mayb i'm not really for it yet...but this few daes had been spent thinking abt it...haiz...seriously,i have no idea wat i want rite now...but...theres one special person who kept appearing in my thoughts....'sigh'...wat can i do??& tat special person don even noe abt it...or mayb she noes...i woulden noe...

Thus,i felt tat i really should spend some quality time thinking abt this issue or its gona scar in my life man...i'd wanted to give up hope initually...but e moment she speaks to me(not abt tat)...dang,i'm caught again...n when i'm caught in it again,ouch...it hurts me when she doesnt talk to me...worse is when she talks to other guys more...makes me wana give up again...happened quite a few time...mayb shi wo yi xiang qing yuan but really cant help it can i?

Den again,when i thought of juz throwing my feelings aside...i started msning one gal almost everydae...(e one whom asked if i like her)...man tat really suck...its like msn flirting tru e things we sae to each other...but i cant help it...ah...e thing is tat it made everything even more complicated n hard...man...i really need to do something abt it...b4 it gets too out of hand...n i don want to hurt her...cos she's one good friend.yup...

As for tat special person...i have no idea how to express my feelings for her...tatz even worse...its like watching someone u love walk away from ur life bit by bit n u cant even do anything to get her back..but rite now,i must not do anything rush...its gona make everything chaoic...y?cos she's takin her A's soon...very soon...anyway,i juz hope theres some progress if possible...

As for now,i'll juz leave it at tat...wow...it really feels good to leash out every single thoughts in my rusted brain...its like squeezing a towel dry wif all ur force n getting e last drop to juz drip off...woo...tat feels great man...

Anyway...one last paragrah...have u ever thought of e toilet attacking u?while,it actually happened to me on sundae morning...after a long bombardment,i was getting ready to flush when,at e touch of the flush handle,e whole bloody damn handle broke into 2!!WTH was tat all abt?and to make it worse,e broken part flew to timbaktu n e remainder of e flush went straight at my wrist,like some bloody glutton gnawing at a piece of steak!!!WAT E BLOODY HELL WAS TAT FOR?????????like its my fault i need to flush??!!e sharp remainder made a deep gush on my wrist man...good thing it missed my main vessels or i doubt i'll be here typing away...freak tat handle man...took away some flesh n blood...

Watever,my wound is healing now...but a present was left for me,a scar...definately...by e monsterious gluttony toilet handle...man i hate toilet flush handle now...

OH well...when i have more to write...i'll b back...tho i doubt anyone will read it..haha...chaoz...