once again...things seems to be better than the last few days...and i guess right now we're both just living each day by day...cant tell what's going to happen tomorrow or in the near future...so we'll live through each day first and see how things goes i guess..

kinda felt vry happy when i saw you today.i guess like what you said,i still haven really let go...but somehow i've already let you go in a way...and i see that you're more happy than the past few days..and we're still good friends,or rather closer than good friends :) so i quite glad too..that you're able to be lively again :)

at least i noe that in your heart i still stand tall, and in my heart,or rather part of what's left,you stand tall too :) though there are probably people who's bitching about us and stuff...and nagging at u and me...we both noe who i'm talking about so no names shall be posted out.lol..over all had fun talking craps and rubbish with you today..

making you laugh is like my everyday necessity haha...to make your day and stuff..since you've already made my day last night with your S.V. good night msg :) i feel much more secured in ur heart now :) i hope u do too..and we can both just do silly things together haha...lol...kidding...fun things i mean...like movies, outings, dates...haha... :P

then again...ns is the killer which i hope will not break us apart...and tear us up into little shreds lol...its gona be tough but i hope that we both will be able to keep holding on and make it tru after all..since i have you and you have me yea? i do hope we can pull tru together during my 2 yrs of ns ans not just that but many years to come too :) hehe..handing hands and walking the path of life together till we aged and pass on..

i'd like for that to happen..lol...i really feel like a ah pei...cos thers so much to talk about but yea...somethings are still best said to you face to face but u also noe how i feel and stuff so i'll leave it for you..lol..i'm kinda surprise my post has no fuck or other rubbish around...lol...seems like venting it out on blog does help me keep my cool..

cause i don wan to be screaming out all this rubbish to no one in particularor rather worse still,to people whom i love and care about...i guess typing them out is the most peaceful and quiet way of releasing the steam...at least when they read it..they'll noe how i feel and stuff...but they wont see me screaming my butt of with all these rubbish...its not vry healthy to keep using these rubbish you noe...makes a habit out of it and gg...

but yea...nvm...i'm going to sleep now...kinda tired out from work and stuff...even tho i enjoyed ur presence at the cafe today :) felt like the old days when you drop by to use my laptop while i'm working :) to see you look up at me and smile so ever sweetly for me :) i'm glad u had fun today and that u are able to pull urself together much sooner than i expected..as in we are still able to talk about everything under the sun.

yea...i better go...its almost 2 in the morning.,..still need to go to school to hand in stuff then go to work and finally spend the evening at your home sweet home :) looking forward to dinner at ur place baby nicole :)