just got home...spent almost the entire day being moody and trying to restraint myself from the urge of calling or msging cole...in the end i still did...i guess its really part of my daily life...a habit i'd say...its not something u can change over night...it might take some time but eventually i shld be able to control myself more i hope...

anyway...we've come to the term of being friends and "ka-ki" when we need each other..lol...something like majong ka-ki kind of thing..lol, cept that ours is just to clown around and make fun of people we see on the streets..haha...for us its fun to do so..lol...anyway...been thinking alot today...like much more than the past few dayes when i'm still in denial...i'm so fucked up the past few days i was clouded by my thoughts...

anyway...now we're clear about where we stand and stuff so i guess for now, the ocean wave is calm..