had another chat with cole today...decided to draw our boundaries as to where we stand...how things are going on between us and stuff...we've come to a decision to remain as best friends till further notice...

i guess its time i wake up from the dream i've been living in the past two nights into the truth...that we are officially broken up...though i'm still hurting...all i want is for cole to be happy and to live her life happily...i'll continue to hold on to this friendship between both of us.

though i'm still harboring hopes that we might one day get back together...for now...i guess its just my dream...the one same dream that i will dream of every single night when i go to bed...to see us back together like before...its painful to let go...but i guess i have to learn to deal with the pain...

the only comfort i have now is looking forward to still being able to go over to her place and have her come over to spend time together...though not as couple but as best friends...and i know she does too...and that i can still see her every now and then...maybe not as much as i used to when we're together...but yea..

will still be doing things together like we used to...sitting together during meals,sharing and maybe feeding each other...as long as she's happy i guess i'm willing to do all i can to help her up her feet again...

currently waiting for her message so that i can call her to chat for a while...need to get my much needed sleep though...haven been sleeping well the past two nights...though i know that i still might have problems sleeping tonight...hopefully i'll be able to get some rest from it anyway...

gona be having a long day tml...gota go to school to check out whether i'm selected for second presentation and to help out with some decorations...then working at night too...bleah...though i'm not really ready for work...couldn't find other people to cover...so i guess there's no choice...oh well...i'm getting paid for it anyway..

gona get some rest while i wait for cole to msg me once she's done with her bath...chao...