fucked up evening at work today...totally fucked up customers...so what if you're from some rich club?so what if you're regular customer?if u're really regular then you should know better than to fuck us around like some body's bitch or something...sometimes i just don't understand why rich people can be so fucked up at times...like so what if u are rich?if ur attitude sucks like some fucking shit then whats the point?people will still hate you for life...

anyway...all i can say is tonight wasn't a good night for me...and the worse is my boss keep forcing me to work on saturday and sunday...its like fuck man...even though i can work more...it doesn't mean i must free up my own personal time right?like when i want to spend time with close friends and stuff...my boss keep making me work on sunday night and full shit on saturday...shit...

then the things is give me firday off still keep calling me to work...wtf la...the rest got program on sunday i don't have is it?fuck la...if they cant give up their own program to work...why must i always give up mine just so they can be free to have their own program?it doesn't make sense to me...and its like always when i dont wan to work...cause i'm planing for something on that day that they always call me to work whether i like it or not...everytime its like really got no people le...then when i check then i realise fuck la...all those who cant work is because they are going out on dates or something...its just unfair if u ask me...

heck...don wana talk abt it now...this post is just to vent my frustration for tonight...let me release everything out...i'll feel better...and cole is like my drug now...and i'm addicted to the drug...every time i need someone to talk to...i'll call her...its become a habit...cause i guess she's e only one who noes me better than others...and like what people say...when you take drug, the effect of the drug shows on ur body...like when cole is happy i'll feel happy and when cole is sad i'll feel sad...

hopefully cole will be able to come over tomorrow after school...not confirm yet but yea...just wish for her company now...i miss the love and care from her i guess...cant wait for friday to come too...gona company cole to the dental again for her appointment..then if theres time will go for blood donation together...my promise to her..if not then head back home for dinner...maybe spraw again..and nua...see how i guess...probably if she comes over tomorrow will just nua till its time to go to work then send her back before hand..

if possible will send her to school on tuesday,,,i realised i haven done that at all when we're together...so kinda want to send her to school..then maybe go slack somewhere while waiting for her to end school then go over to her place before heading down to work...its like i'm spend so much time with her even up till now but yea...spending time with cole has become part of my daily life i guess...and its hard to change one's life in a split second or over night...it's gona tkae a long time...

hopefully before i enlist...i'll be able to control my feelings from showing too much...then i'll be able to let go fully...its hard though...i feel like i'm on life support...and cole's the plug...like if you pull out the plug...the patient will die and stuff...its how i kinda still am feeling now...like if you pull cole out from my life totally...i'll just crumble and fall...i dont think she'll want me to crumble too...but she's already letting go...so i guess i'll have to learn to live without the life support machine...

fuck...so many mosquitoes around...irritating...biting me all over the freaking place...urgh...damn it...i better start moving around before they suck me dry...