i'm really feeling bored..though i'm working part time,the days when i'm not working,it's really boring...time passes by so slowly it's killing me...but it also gives me more time to think...are sparks flying again?am i turning my attention towards you more?i think so...but i have to be careful this time...i don't want history to repeat itself...so,i better look before i take my step.

i have been having thoughts about you more these few days...and i'm afraid...that these thoughts are affecting me the same way it did the last time,that ended up in me wasting my time and all on someone who ended up hating me...i need some assurance,maybe form you but i don't know how it's gona happen...

oh well...maybe i'll really only know how when the time comes...i just realised i've always said that...but the time never seem to come....sigh...sometime i just wana see into my future...but it's not possible...bleh...ahh...thinking too negatively now....think possitive!think possitive!!i better end before my morale drops..