i'm such a loser...don't know why...but that's how i'm kinda feeling right now...everytime you appear,people will tend to notice the difference in the way i behave when you're around...and they always have to ask am i ok...which makes it even more obvious...sigh...like duh...of cause i'm not really ok...especially when you are around...

but everyone just kept asking me the same old question...maybe intentionally,or by coincidence...i do not know...but it's geting irritating...though i don't really like it when you are around cause i will feel uneasy...but when you are not around...it feels as though something is missing...and i'm not really liking one bit of it...

it shows that i'm still feeling towards you...which i want to forget...and cast aside...there's always a mixed feeling inside of me when i see you...one which still yearns for you...and the other which loathes you...i just wana cut up my chest and see what exactly is going on in my heart...though i'm sure to die if i do so...but i really don't know what i'm feeling right now...

at one time,i want to see you,at another,i want to get away from you...and yet another,my heart seem to shift towards my other female firends...i'm really feeling tired...especially when people are talking about me already...i know who they are but i will not name them...it's very ungentleman to do that...so i'll just let it be...

on the other hand,mag,i'm so sorry..haha...had to get you to take out the stupid toilet bowl brush out from the toilet bowl cause it got stuck inside the bowl..lol...was washing the toilet at the cafe when the head of the brush just poped out and disappear into the dowl...omg...then i tried to get it out by using the handle but it was stuck..so i had to ask mag for help..and she wore a glove and venture her hand into the mysterious bowl in search of the missing head...haha...ans low ans behold,she got it!but it was stuck because there was shit at the inside bottom of the bowl...yucks...so we threw away the whole thing...and it ends the case of the missing head..haha..

oh well..i laughed till my stomache had cramps...which was a super long time ago when i had such a great laugh...so much so that mag and chang da were looking at me in disbelief while calling me siao(mad).haha...it kinda calmed me down abit...which was a superb great way to destress..yup..

anyway,i better get going,have to go sch in the morning to study...if not bh sure will kao bei me again..