last night wasn't really a pleasent one...the fact that i had to work with her was already quite sian...though i do my best to make things ok...it just doesn't really work out well for me...the way she speak to me is just so different from the last time...it used to be ok,now her words feels so cold...

through out the whole night,she didn't even start a conversation with me at all,so all she does is talk to chris while i do my own stuffs.and the fact that she didn't even bother to help me collect the cups back just says it all...that she doesn't give a damn...

thank goodness my lil sis came to the rescue,by keeping me company through sms...thanks alot :D like i said, war has started without me yesterday...and i feel that it is true...everything seem to all go wrong at the same time...first,the air-con leaked and flooded the floor...then after frothing milk,i split them all over the bar when i was done with it...then the stupid coffee machine's single shot cap flew off and gave me a few little burns...

everything's going against me...and all these happen when she was around...something's definitely going on here...but what i've said to my lil sis before-i don't see the point in you giving all your efforts to someone who doesn't seem to care,i'm going to apply it to myself...since she has already drawn the line,there's nothing for me to lose is there?not much anyway...

i just wish that someone who appriciates me for who i am will appear soon...though i may not know when that is...i may have already met that someone...but still...only God knows when it will happen.till then...

i'm still feeling super tired...and i still don't know why...ate quite alot yesterday just to generate enough energy to keep myslef awake for the day...but the food breaks down too fast..imagine eating sushi during morning lesson,then after that go for lunch and dessert. then buy sweets and flavored iced tea for the afternoon and then eating pancakes and pasta for dinner...yet when i reached home,i was already feeling hungry again...

something's wrong...could be an illness,or it could be some changes in my body that is making me experience all these things...if it's an illness...then i'm sure to gg...and my digestion systems is going chaotic again...maybe due to the holidays where my eating went back to normal and now it's trying to adapt to schooling again...seems like that's the most likely case here...if not i also don't know what is wrong here...

anyway,gona go school soon...skip 2 lesson for today liao...so i better go for my afternoon lesson...though it's only 10 am now...still..i have about 1 & 1/2 hour left before i set off...so gona rest for now.