hmmm...random thoughts...interesting questions that pops into my mind all of a sudden...haha...but,some of these questions can be quite freaky at times...and i shall not give away these thoughts that went through my mind...but then again,like i said...its quite interesting how these things comes into our mind so easily...

like all of a sudden...this question pops into my mind...-what if we were together?-and i'm still thinking about this question...like why it came uo out of the blue...and i still haven't really found the answer yet...oh well...shall not ponder over it too much...already have so much white hair...

work was tiring yet satisfying i would say...lol...don't know where the wind was blowing from but it brought alot of people in today. though i had to rush about doing 2 person's job at the same time...had like 4 tables of customers when the door was just unlocked...so i didn't have any time to bring out the tables and chair.

had to take care of the 4 tables but i thank God that jing fa came eariler than his sheduled time.so i was able to do my own work.and there was this customer who came in alone,and man was she pretty :D.haha...seen her around at the cafe quite a few times with another friend but this time she came alone.and she stayed from like 12pm till 5pm...wow...eye candy for 5 hours...but like what they say,only for display,not for sale...oh well.

then for the whole afternoon, it was kind of peaceful,till she came by...again...seriously,i'm trying not to think too much about it...but again,she went into the bar and just stood by the icecream fridge there,the corner right beside the sink where i always slack in...the worse is i had to be there cause i had some dishes to wash...it was after i place down the dishes into the sink that she walk away..then she just kept lingering around till she had to go back...i don't know...

chris said i'm thinking too much...but then...and if she doesn't like me,then why does she always come near?though i've decided to give up...it's really a burden i've gotten myself into...a huge burden in my heart...and as what people say-time and time alone will heal the broken heart-yes,i do agree with it...but everytime when there is a sign that my heart is healing, she will appear infront of me and my heart will stop healing...then the wound will appear again...

i want to learn how to really give up without regretting...how to let go of the bar and reach forward and grap the next one instead of holding on to the one same bar...i'm stuck at the same place...i need to move on!i want to move on!i must move on!stretch and reach out for the next bar!stretch!!!

sigh...all the complaining...the stupidlity...i feel so stupid to be trapped in my own feelings...screw my feelings and get on with life man...i'm wasting away opportunities out there...