this is definately the worse thing i'm going through for christmas season this year...first,right on christmas morning,my day was screwed up by someone i regard as my buddy and brother,whom also cause her to be angry at him and me...

now,i just found out that she blocked me on msn too,after suban told me that she was online...shit man...everything's falling apart...all that i treasured...all that i hold precious to my heart...all beaten...crushed...broken...gone...every single thing...

where do i go from here?how do i go from here?what's out there for me?i feel like i'm stuck on a road that is never ending,the people around me seem to find the little exits and leave without me...leaving me all alone,moving on on the road without exits....and the road just kept narrowing down till it becomesa one-way lane where there's no return...and i'm regretting everything that past me by...

i'm at my wit's end now...God...where do i go from here?is this how it's gona be?there's so much i wanaask You...but i cant get them out...why?Lord...tell me why...let me know that You are there,that You care...and all that You have for me are in Your hands...

sigh...i think she really hates me now...but what can i do?i guess i'll just leave it all to God...