haiz...it seem tat in my circle of friends...i'm e only one who likes angela zhang...been spending almost e whole week searching for ppl to go with me to j8 this saturday to her autograph session...but it seem no one can be bothered about her...somehow i don really get it...am i juz so totally different from e rest?and to think tat asking for juz one request from a friend can lead to some freaking shit confrontation...

wat e heck?i ask if can go with me den suddenly confrontation shoots straight back at me...i mean...if u cant make it...so be it...y have to inturn shoot a ****ing confrontation about certain topics which i totally hates to discuss at me?have i offended u in some way?den some other friends were like...hey wana go play pool?den i told them ok can...saturday i don mind.den can go j8 at e same time...den they turned their back at me...

and they can still call themselves my friend...always asking me to follow them go do this do that...always taking advantages of me...seriously...wats their freaking problem?!

rite now...i'm wondering...are those who call themselves my friends act as if they're my friends or are they taking advantages of me?it seem tat maybe i shouldn't even bother wif them anymore...its like e word 'friend' seem so shallow....without much meaning in it anymore...

ppl will juz call themselves ur friend cos they need u to do something for them...when they dont need u,they simply turn their asses at u...basically,tats wat i think they are doing to me rite now...and to think tat ppl can 'act' tat they care...but deep inside...i'm seriously thinking...do they really care or give a shit about me?

e worse is tat some of them are christians...which now really made me wonder about my faith...am currently losing it at a fast rate...is it really worth it?i ask myself...and e confrontation shit really pissed me off abt my faith...wat is it about me not reading the book (not bible) tat ppl come and tell me tat i should be doing something they themselves don't really do?now i really want to juz heck care tat freaking book...if u ask me...i don find any point in reading it...from my point of view...its juz a book...and i hate reading...end of story....any more about it and i'll really **** u off...

back to e start...WITH OR WITHOUT any friends...i'm going to j8 tml to see angela zhang...to hell wif those who call themselve my friend but cant even bother to do me a favor...they can juz **** themselves off for all i care...