i've realised...as e daes went by me...i've somehow became numb to e fact tat i'm alone...tat i'm actually learning to adept to e fact...which i realised i'd wouldn't survived if e instinct inside me hadn't took over...i'd proberbly be in so much pain and suffering i'd sae...

somehow, its like someone is injecting painkiller into my heart everydae...so tat i'll feel numb carry on wif life...maybe tats wat God had intended for me...i dono...it seem tat that's e case...maybe i'll be able to get over e issue soon enough and find another meaning to life itself...till now...i've been holding on to sinking ship...and its dragging me deeper n deeper into e sea...

maybe soon enough,i'll noe how to release my grip on e sinking ship and who noes,i may float up e surface again...and while i'm at it...i may be able to find another ship to hold on to...a ship tat will never sink...already,my tight grip has been loosen...

tho i still want to hold on to tat ship...hoping for a miracle tat will enable e sinking ship to foat up...it seemed impossible tho...anyway...i'm feeling alot better compared e last time...so i juz hope everything tat happened is for e best of life...my life tat is to sae...