somehow..
.it seemed all clear...tho i'm still confused...e feeling was there...den it wesn't....now its coming back...but its fading off...and i don feel all those xiang feelings i thought i would feel...tho i'd rather feel some of those feelings...is it my feelings for her are fading off?or is it a break tru for me?

somehow,i realised tat i wasn't alone when it all happened...normally,i would have been lost in my own thoughts and xiang feelings...but it seemed at that point in time,God was carrying me in His arms...and once again,there was only one set of footprints,God's...

not only was He carrying me,He held on to my hand...and i could like hear Him sae this:"My child My child,I'll always be there for you..." tat was wat i really held on to...and i noe that God was the one who held back my tears and feelings...always,He's wif me...never leaving me to fend for myself.

as the dae went by me(i slept from 4 till 8),it all seemed so fast...everything was juz wizzing by me...and already,its almost 12am soon...haiz...maybe, juz maybe...i'll only be ready to move on wif life soon...but till den,i'll hold on to this dream,this dream my heart created and engraved deeply....till den...will i noe if truely,i'll still want her in my life...rite now,tats wat i want...

zhao zhao mu mu de den dai
ke yi ling wu shuo bu chu lai
shen shen si si de shang hai
ke yi gan shuo xie bu chu lai
tian ya hai jiao dou feng kai
hong chen nang nu wei shen me xiang ai
tou fa hua bai shui xue hua piao xia lai

bie lai wei wo tan xi
wo de yan lei you ta de jing li
bie yi wei wo xin li mei you mi mi

gu du bu ku bu zai hu
cai bu hui wei yi ge ren feng shen shui gu
mei you ai kuai le ting zi zi ku
gu du bu ku bu zai hu
cai bu hui yi ge zi wan jie bu fu
xiang de tai qing chu feng er mi lu wo yuan mang mu

duo duo shao shao de rong yan
shen me shi hou xiang bu qi lai
dian dian di di zai xin tou
ke yi ming bai xie bu chu lai
shi shi fei fei feng bu kai
hong chen nang nu wei shen me yao xiang ai
xiang si you hai shui xue hua piao xia lai

bie lai wei wo tan xi
wo de yan lei you ta de jing li
bie yi wei wo xin li mei you mi mi

gu du bu ku bu zai hu
cai bu hui wei yi ge ren feng shen shui gu
mei you ai kuai le ting zi zi ku
gu du bu ku bu zai hu
cai bu hui yi ge zi wan jie bu fu
xiang de tai qing chu feng er mi lu wo yuan mang mu