great...i'm feeling sad now...haiz...been writing...or rather typing a long letter for 2 nites liao...a letter so special that its actually quite hard for me to write out...cos its a letter abt my feelings all these years...till now,i've only writen only abt 2 pages i think...and it feels so short...

somehow...i have a feeling that this letter-once i give it to her...it'll be all over...the end...tho i try not to think of that ending...tried writing more juz now...but i juz cant seem to continue...because writing this special letter out really hurt me as i type out the words 1 by 1...as e letter takes its form...so is my heart breaking off...little by little...sipping into the letter...making me feel so empty deep inside...

haiz...filling e letter wif my heart...i'm actually digging into my own self...consuming myself from within...i need something...or someone to fill e hole inside me...den i remembered...a story of a man who dreamt that he met the Lord...

it is tittled: One Set Of Footprints
here goes: one nite a man had a dream.he dreamed that he was walking along a beach with the Lord.across the shy flashed scenes from his life.for each scence he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand-one belonging to him;the other to the Lord.

when the last scence of his life flashed before him,he looked back at the footprints in the sand-he noticed that many times along the path of his life,there was only one set of footprints.

he also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.this really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it."Lord,you said that once i decided to follow you,you'd walk with me all day.but i have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,there is only one set of footprints.i don't understand why in times i needed you most,you would leave me."

the Lord replied,"my precious,precious child,i love you and i would never,nevr leave you during your times of trials and sufferings.when you see only one set of footprints,it was then that i carried you.."

i'm sure many of u have heard this story b4...theres only one thing i'll sae of this story...wow...this story actually touched me i realise...that rite now,i'm at one of my saddest time of my life yet...and i noe that theres only one set of footprints...and that is God carrying me in His arms...filling e emptiness in my heart...

oh Lord...how many times have i forgotten all abt You...and juz a simple story is all that it takes to remind me that You care...and that U'll never leave me...its time i return to you Lord...i'm gona lift up this issue too the Lord...for i noe that He'll take care of it all...may it be for His glory...

yup...tho i'm still feeling low...i noe that He's wif me...and i shall not be in want...

i'll juz wait upon Him-and everything will be fine...thats wat we call-yu guo tian qing.